Today I want to share this picture as my Throwback Thursday.
I wanted to share this picture because it makes me think of a sunny autumn day and of happy times. I love walking in the fallen leaves in the woods with the dogs. It makes me happy.
Today its Monday and so far it hasn’t been a really good day. It feels like all the things that can go wrong has gone wrong, which really isn’t true. Far from it actually. But I have to admit. I almost just gave up and crawled down in my big, cosy warm bed.
It all started this morning when I woke up. I didn’t feel good. I felt nausea and didn’t have an appetite. But this isn’t new. Its been like this for about a week. The Zelda stole and chewed on a butter knife that was in plastic so it broke. And I had to give her asparagus in case she ate some parts of the butter knife.
Then when I was driving to doggie daycare the care was making some strange noise that worries me so I drove to my brother and he calmed me down. It was nothing serious. I am borrowing my parent’s car at the moment. And the thought of it breaking and possible beeing my falt was just too much.
Now I am sitting on campus and trying to relax before I eat my lunch. And then I have a lecture. I am trying to come up with some waý to make this day better. My goal for today is to turn this day around. Something I know I can do.
I hope you all have a fabulous day!
Love, Nea
My first ever throwback post. And for this I have chosen to share this picture:
It’s of my dogs Zelda and Oracle in September 2016. As you can see Zelda is just a little puppy. 😍 And she’s about 3 months old.
I remember Oracles questioning look one me when we took Zelda with us home. Oracle was used to being the only dog in the family and all the sudden she had a baby sister. It was a bit hard at first. But now Oracle adores and loves her little sister. And many nights they fall asleep laying like this together.
Today is a hard day for me. The thoughts in my head are spinning around and I don’t feel like I can get a grip on them. I have tried to do something all day. But I feel like a balloon that the air has left.
I want to crawl back in bed and read a good book or just sleep. And the dogs went back to doggie-daycare this morning. So I have been home alone until I went to campus now in the afternoon. I had a late lecture. And I had to fight with my mind to get there. But I did it. I didn’t give up. And I could stay the whole lecture.
After the lecture, I went to pick up the dogs at daycare. My husband dropped them off this morning. Oracle and Zelda were really happy to see me.
Now I am just trying to calm down and breath. I have a long day tomorrow too and every other day this week. But I am a fighter.
Have an amazing evening.
Love, Nea
Good Morning,
Today my classes will begin again. Today I have an afternoon class, so I am still at home with the dogs. But I have lots of things to do before I go to campus today. I have a little bit of reading to do and some other school-related things to do. But first I wanted to write something here.
Yesterday afternoon my parents came back with Oracle. It was really nice to have her home again. I know she has had a wonderful time with my parents and it has been nice to have some alone time with Zelda. But I still miss Oracle when she isn’t with us. Zelda had obliviously also missed her “sister” because she was really happy seeing her again yesterday. And this morning when I woke up they were sleeping in the same dog bed together. Almost hugging. It was so cute.
My husband and I slept the first night in the new bed tonight. I woke up with no back pain. It felt wonderful. But the bed still smells new. I don’t really know how to explain it, but it was hard to fall asleep. I know I will get used to the “smell” eventually and that it won’t smell new forever.
Right now I am sitting in the sofa with Oracle sleeping on the left of my and Zelda sleeping on the right of me. I am waiting on a call from my husband telling me if he is going to have to be gone for a few days because of work.
Now I am going to do some reading.. Have a fantastic day!
Love, Nea
Hello,
Yesterday was not a good day, but I was determined to make today a good day. This morning my husband and I got up early. He walked Zelda over to my brother’s house because he was going to take care of her.
Then after we ate breakfast we went IKEA in Örebro and got ourselves a new bed. Our old one has been giving ous backpains and we decided that we needed a new bed the other day.
Oracle went on vacation over the weekend with my parents yesterday. So no dog was left alone at home. We were gone for a few hours and came home with an amazing bed. And its bigger than the old one, so now my husband is really happy.
We also bought new pillows for the bed and new linens. So it was a really good day.
But I had some problems in the store. Too many people are one of my triggers for my panic attacks. I had some small ones, but I kept powering through.
Tonight we will be sleeping on the pullout sofa because the bed needs to breathe for at least 12 hours.
I will try to write more about my panic tomorrow. Now I am going to enjoy an evening with my husband.
Love, Nea
A picture from our evening walk with Zelda.
Good morning,
Today is one of those days when it’s just hard to get up out of bed. But I have made myself a promise. Never give up. Never. So I forced myself out of bed. Got dressed, feed the dogs and went out with the dogs. Ate breakfast. And decided that I should share with you.
If you are having a bad day, just remember is just a bad day. Remember all the good things in your life. I remember my wonderful husband that always are there for me. My two amazing dogs. My supporting family. My outstanding friends.
Because I have my dogs, I need to go out with the dogs. I need to feed them. Because they need me. This is one of the things that make me never give up. Never give in.
I don’t have a bad life, but sometimes I have bad days. Sometimes I have a couple of bad days in a row. But I will never give up. And it is always okay to ask for help.
I hope you all will have an amazing day. And never ever stop fighting.
Love, Nea
The dogs on this mornings walk.
Good morning,
Today it’s Thursday and soon it will be the weekend. I am still sick and I have no real strength to get things done. The dogs think I am boring because I don’t play as much with them as I usually do. But they love to cuddle with me.
On the morning walk, they found blueberries. They ate a lot of them and it gave me some time to just take a breath and enjoy being outside. It was a quiet morning walk. We just saw one neighbour in a distant.
Today I don’t really know what I am going to do. What I really should be doing is:
But what I want to do is:
Maybe I could do a little bit of both. Now it’s time for breakfast.
Have an amazing day and don’t forget you are all fantastic!
Love, Nea
Zelda and Oracle eating blueberries on this mornings walk.
Good morning,
I am still sick. But I am trying to do the best of the situation. Will be having a quiet day at home today too. My husband is at work. The dogs are both sleeping. Zelda is sleeping in the armchair and Oracle is sleeping on the back of the sofa.
Today I will start reading my course literature for my statistics classes that start on Monday. I want to be prepared for my first lecture. And I will try to get some writing done as well. I have so many ideas in my head that need to get out of my head and on to paper.
Right now I have a problem tear myself from Netflix. I am looking at Chesapeake Shores. I kind of love the series, and I have looked at almost 1,5 seasons in two days. This is what I do when I am sick. Just taking it easy and watching Netflix. So that is what I will continue doing now.
Have a wonderful day,
Love, Nea.
How Oracle and Zelda are both sleeping right now. ❤
Hello world,
today I am taking a quiet day at home. I’m feeling a bit sick. I think I have a cold coming on, so I am taking it slow today. Even tho it feels like I have a million things to do. It can be really nice to just slow down for a bit. I am doing some laundry and I have looked at things for next weeks semester start. My schedule is more packed than I would have wanted it to be. But that is life. You just have to make the best of it.
This morning a went on a walk with my two dogs, Oracle and Zelda. You could feel the rain hanging in the air, but it was still nice. It really starting to feel like autumn is here to stay. I will miss the summer, but I love all the different seasons because they all bring something I love.
Like Autumn with the crisp air and the leaves falling down, that the dogs love to play in. The colours are so beautiful and amazing to photograph. And taking long walks with the dogs and my husband is cozy. And then coming inside and crawling down under a blanket on the couch and just holding on to each other. Maybe just talking, watching something on Netflix or just reading.
Right now I am sitting on the couch with the dogs. Zelda is snoring beside me and Oracle is half asleep. They love being close to me and I love it. Dogs are really good companions to have. I can’t imagine my life without them.
Now I have to take care of the clothes in the washing machine. Have a nice day.
Love, Nea
Zelda in my lap yesterday. She wanted to be with my when I was writing.
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