Hi Everyone!

I been kind of MIA for months and it sucks. I have been wanting to come on here to write for a long time, but the truth is that I have not really know what to write. My mental health has declined and I been fighting like crazy just to get up out of bed most days. I will not go into too much detail at this post, but I been struggling and even though I have wanted to share this with you I have not had the energy. I am slowly getting better, or at least it feels like that. But I am still struggling and fighting. I am also waiting to see a psychologist. There are long queues all over Sweden, probably since the pandemic caused a lot of peoples mental health took a hit from it.

I am going to try and be more active here, but I will probably talk more about my struggles and it might be triggering for some. I will try and write warnings before I do, but I might forget.

Just remember that even though you are struggling with your health, you are still worthy of love and happiness. It might feel like you are all alone in the world, but I promise you that you are not,

Write to you soon again,

Love Nea

Tuesday Truths

As some of you might have noticed I did not post a Motivational Monday post yesterday. I just did not have the time or energy. I have been working hard on my mental health and trying to keep my head over water. But it is though and I am struggling. I want this blog to be uplifting and help people. However, I still feel like being honest is the best thing I can do.

I hope you all can be understanding that I will post on here when I want and when I have the time. So far 2022 has been stressful, messy, sad and great at the same time. I have more emotions then I thought was possible. I am trying my best to keep it all together and just move forward.

I wish you all a fantastic week! And what ever you are going through! YOU GOT THIS!

Love, Nea

Motivational Monday ~ 7th February

Monday again and the sun is shining. I have already had a productive day and it makes me happy. I decided to start this week in the best possible way by just starting doing things that needed to be done. I wrote a list yesterday of what I needed to do this week and I have already tackled 5 things, which makes me really happy. I remembered this morning a quote I read the other day, which motivated me a lot. So that will be this week’s motivational quote.

I try to get more things done than just talking about doing things. It’s hard but when I do the things I talked about I feel happier and free. I can do anything I set my mind to and I know you can too. I am working hard on getting my degree, but also challenging my mental health and improving. It’s hard getting out of bed some days, but by doing that and getting things done I feel better. I know I will have off days, we all do. But the days I get things done helps, even with my off days, cause I know I can get back to getting things done.

I wish you all a magical week and remember you can do this!

Love, Nea

Motivational Monday ~ 31 January

It’s the last of January 2022 and I can’t believe we are already a month into 2022. It feels like 2021 was yesterday, but a lot of things have happened so far this year. I will not tell you all, but I am feeling happy and looking forward to a lot of new challenges.

I had some problems deciding this week’s motivational quote, which is the reason I am posting so late. But I finally found a good one, or at least I think its a good one.

I think it’s important to remember that you can’t be happy all the time, mostly happy yes, but things happen. And it’s okay to feel down and sad. There is nothing wrong with you. I also think it’s important to remember that you can’t always have a life full of rainbows. To get there you might need to go through some rain. There will be hard times. You will have to work hard. But I believe in you and know you can get there.

Now I need to work on my assignment that is due on Wednesday.

I wish you all an amazing week!

Love, Nea

Motivational Monday ~ January 17

First post of 2022. I have been planning to post for the last 17 days, but just have not had the energy or motivation. I have been taking it kind of easy these first weeks of 2022. Charging my batteries. A lot has already happened this year and I am still working on my mental health. I think it’s important to remember that mental health is something you need to take care of, it takes time, but it is important to give yourself the time to take care of yourself.

However, this post is a motivational post or at least trying to be. A person who I looked up to a lot, and still look up to, passed in the end of 2021. And I wanted to celebrate her, especially today, on what would have been her 100th birthday. This is why I choose this quote for today’s motivational quote.

I think it’s important to try and remember to laugh. To find the time to laugh at yourself or situations. I know it’s hard. Especially with so much shit going around in the world. However, Covid not going anywhere, if I have gotten it right, and we just have to make the best of what we got. So try and be happy. Make and do things that make you happy. Spend some extra time on yourself, even if it’s just five minutes of extra self-care in the morning. Because you are worth it!

Now I am going to get started on my day. I am starting four new classes today.

Last day of 2021

It’s kind of scary to say goodbye to 2021. What can we expect from 2022? The restrictions have become stricter again in Sweden and I know that the Covid numbers are up. But I think we just have to keep doing our best and keep on moving forward.

My year has been both good and bad, but I am not giving up. I have made a lot of progress since I had my big meltdown at the end of May, and I know I still have a long way to go. But as long as I am working on it there is nothing wrong with taking it slow. I am going to get through this.

I am very thankful for my friends and family that have supported me this year. They have been there for me through it all and I can’t explain how much I love them and how safe they have made me feel. My husband has been especially supportive. He has been there through my worst and not left me. I know that might sound strange to write, but so many times during the year, I was so insecure and thought this it is. He will leave me. But instead, he just kept loving me and being what I needed. So if you are reading this Darling, thank you. I love you!

I am both looking forward and dreading 2022. There are so many things that are up in the air for me, but with my husband by my side I know I can get through it all.

I wish you all a fantastic 2022! And A Happy New Year!

Love, Nea

Lists

I guess I am not the only one who is forgetful. And I know that there are more people with depression and anxiety who need to have goals of what to do during the day to be able to get things done. This means that I write a lot of lists. Lists of things I need to do, like the dishes or laundry and watering the plants. But also lists of what groceries are needed, what we are going to eat that week, as well as lists of what I want to share on this blog and my Instagram linked to this blog. As well as on my bookstagram and book blog. I also write lists of what I am thankful for and the top three things that have happened in a week. This helps me find the light in the dark.

I think I write lists of almost everything and it helps me. Helps me remember, helps me get things done, and helps me focus on good things. I know some people get annoyed when I talk about my lists, but they help me. Therefore they are important.

Today I started once again on a list of what I am thankful for. This is a list that never really changes, only smaller things on it or seasonal things. But it helps me. I want to share this list with you. It might help you or give you the idea to try your own list. So here goes:

What I am thankful for:

  • My Husband
  • Oracle (my corgi)
  • Zelda (my second corgi)
  • My family
  • My friends
  • My house
  • My happy childhood memories
  • My writing
  • My books
  • The food I eat
  • The clothes
  • My warm and comfy bed
  • My time
  • My garden
  • The woods around me
  • The animals that I see living in the woods
  • The sun
  • The smell of the warming fire in our fireplace
  • My stubbornness
  • The hope of a white winter
  • The happiness I feel when I watch my husband
  • the happiness I feel when my dogs chase each other on the frosty ground in the garden
  • The happiness I feel when my nephew or neice wants to play or just be with me
  • Having somewere to share my struggles

This list is shorter than the real list. But this is what I wrote in about five minutes. And looking at it makes me feel thankful and blessed. I also have hope for the future. I have so much love and support around me and I know I can make it through. Just as I know that you can make it through.

Love, Nea

World Mental Health Day 2021

Today is World Mental Health Day. I read that this day was first celebrated in 1992, almost 20 years. A lot have changes since then, but there is still a lot of misinformation and shame linked to mental health.

I still have times that people look at me strange when I tell them about my depression and/or anxiety. Some people don’t want to get to know me because of this. Some companies don’t want to employ me because of this. But you know what? I am more than my mental health issues. I am more than my depression. I am more than my anxiety. I am just as important as other people. I am just as worthy of love and affection. Of friendship. Of living. I am not worth less than anyone else.

You are not worth less. You are worthy of love, friendship and so much more. We all are. It does not matter if we have mental health problems or not.

I hope that we in another 20 years can be more open without being judged. I hope that we can continue working for a better world for all of us. I don’t want people to be ashamed about their struggles. I want people to be able to be open, and get the help ans support they need.

I know we all can do better and help spread the awareness. I am trying to be more open with my struggles and I hope you can to. It’s okay to have problems. It’s okay to ask for help.

Voices ~ Jana Kramer

I have started to listen to songs that help me feel more confident or at least help me deal with my feelings. I am one of those people who can listen to the same song over and over again. And today I want to share one of those songs with you. This is a new song that was released last week.

It is called Voices and it is Jana Kramer that sings it. I love Jana Kramer, she has an incredible voice and she has so much things to share. This song is about feeling that you are worthy of love and stop listening to the voices in your head. When I first heard this song I feel as she was singing of me. I often feel like I am not enough and that I don’t deserve my husbands love. But this song has helped me start being more nice to myself. So I hope that that might do the same for you.

Because you are amazing and worthy of love! Ignore the voices in your head.

Motivational Monday ~ September 6th

Monday morning and I am so tired. This weekend was not a lot of rest, I studied a lot and tried to get some things done at home. I have a deadline for the master thesis. 15 of September, only nine days away. It is scary and it is stressful. But I can do this.

I think it is important to remember to do your best. Sometimes it all goes wrong, but then you just have to get up and try again. At least that is what I think. I know I might not get a passing grade on my thesis, but I am doing my very best. Therefore I choose this quote for this week.

So when life knocks you down. Scream, cry or what ever you need. Then get back up again. I know you can do it!

I wish you all an fantastic week.

Love, Nea