Missing my family..

Today is a though day. I am missing my family like crazy.

I want to snuggle with my dogs and go on a long walk with them. Hear Zelda snore when she sleeps and have Oracle snuggle up in my arms. Tell them I love them and give them kisses.

I want to talk to my nephew and see him smile because we are playing with his cars. Hug him and tell him I love him. He is my little ray of sunshine.

I want to talk about photography and books with my dad and give him a hug. Tell him that I love him and how thankful I am to have him as my father.

I want to talk about the garden with my mom and hug her. Tell her I love her and how much I appreciate all the things she does for me.

My nephew and Sister-in-law.

I want to talk to my brother about his job and his son. and hug him and tell him he is the best big brother a girl can have. And that I love him.

I want to talk about baking gluten-free baking with my mother-in-law. And how grateful I am to her for raising as an amazing man as my husband. To tell her I love her and give her a hug.

I want to talk about everything with my sister-in-law. About my nephew, her new work and the plans for the house. Talk about traveling. Tell her how happy I am to have her in my life. That she and my nephew are the best things that has happen in my brothers life. And that I love her for it.

I just really miss them all. And after one week of stress to finish two essays I feel so tired and I miss them more. I know that I am almost halfway to getting home again and seeing them all. And I know that the following weeks will be packed with things to do.

I have two essays left to write. And to exams in May. And it is about two weeks until I have Spring-Break for three weeks, when I will be studying my ass of to pass my exams and finish the last essay.

My husband!

My husband is understanding and supportive and without him I would not be able to do this. He helps me through the hard days and always listens to me. I love him and I am grateful that such an amazing man loves me.

Sorry for my rant. I just needed to get this out. I wish you all an amazing Thursday!

Love, Nea

Essay planning

My life revolves round tutorials, lectures and essays right now. I am trying to spend as much time as possible with my schoolwork. As much possible without losing my mind.

Right now I am so tired. I would like to crawl into bed and sleep until tomorrow. But I really need to work on two of my essays. When we got home for about an hour ago we just dropped off our things and I changed out of my “School clothes” and into something more relaxing. Then we took a walk along the river of Leith. Just to unwind a bit.

Now I am trying to motivate myself to look up academic articles for my essays. I need to find about 20 different articles. And I might only have 2 good so far. But I am working on that.

I know this was probably a boring update, but I want to be better at sharing my life. And this is my life right now.

Hope you have a wonderful Monday evening.

Love, Nea

Studying…

I am really bad at posting here at the moment. This week has gone by so fast. I have an essay due at the end of next week and I am on my third rewrite, from the beginning. I am so nervous about this essay because it will be my first one here in Scotland and I want a good grade.

These last couple of days I have been to my lectures and all my free time is being spent studying. And all I want is to eat cookies and sleep. Not so fun for you to read, but its the truth. I have 5 essays to write before April is here.

I love my courses at Campus and I love Edinburgh. I am looking forward to Spring Break when I will have more opportunities to go exploring. Right now my priorities are: Study and take care of my self. To keep my self healthy.

I am going to watch The Voice UK tonight with my husband and just take it easy. That is something I am looking forward to. I love this tv-show and I love the blind auditions. One of my favourite auditions from last week is down below if you want to watch it. Now I am going to study. Have a fantastic Saturday!

Love, Nea

First February

January is finally over. And I welcome February with open arms. Yesterday we had the coldest day since we moved her to Edinburgh. I was freezing so much when we stood waiting for the bus in the morning. But I know they have it so much colder in Sweden so I should not complain. And that other places are even colder.

Yesterday it was exactly 4 weeks since we moved here. And it feels strange. It feels like we haven’t been living here for so long. And I realised this week that now I have done 1/3 of by studying before I have Spring Break. 8 weeks left of lectures and tutorials. And 5 essays to write. Then I have 3 weeks of Spring break where I can study for my two exams.

This week we have taken it easy because I am still sick. I want this cold to disappear. There are so many things I want to do here in Edinburgh, and staying in the apartment with a fever is not one of them. Hopefully, I will have the energy to take a walk this afternoon.

Now I am going to study some before Lunch. I wish you all a fantastic Friday.

Love, Nea

This Week..

It’s Friday and I am sick. I have a cold and all I want to do is to sleep, but I have so much schoolwork to do. The plan for this weekend was to study, do some shopping and to meet up with an old friend that also lives here in Edinburgh, but now it will be a weekend of trying to get well and to study.

I have tried to make a study schedule to keep track of all my classes and all the essays I need to write before April. I am still feeling a little overwhelmed but I know that I can do this.

This week has been a bit hard because I have been feeling the cold all week, and yesterday I actually only made it to one of my lectures, and I feel really bad about it. I was sleeping and trying to get rid of my fever instead.

There has not happened a lot of fun things this week. Mostly been studying and going to campus. But I have also been thinking about all the places I want to see here in Scotland. There are a lot of wonderful places and I think I need to make a list because my Google Map is full of places tagged that I want to visit.

Now I am going to start on my workload for Mondays mornings tutorial. Hopefully, I can finish it today so can start working on Monday’s lecture readings, Tuesday’s tutorial work and my essay that’s due in the middle of February.

Have a Fantastic Friday,

Love, Nea

One week from now…

I will probably be sitting on the sofa in our apartment in Edinburgh. Early Thursday next week we are being driven to the airport. And I haven’t started packing yet. This is starting to stress me… I thought I had a lot more time. The last couple of weeks have gone by so fast.

Today I have washed a lot of clothes and I need to wash a whole lot more. I have the bags at least. We bought 3 new bags a couple of months ago, but I need to buy luggage tags for them.

Do anyone have any good packing tips? I hate packing and I feel like I always miss something when I pack. I started writing a packing list a couple of months ago and I think our bags will be full. I was wondering if I should buy more bags, but we are already taking tree large bags that we are going to check in and we are each going to have a carry-on bag.

Now I have to go and hang laundry. Have an fantastic Thursday evening!

Love, Nea

Last day at Campus

Yesterday I had my last day at campus, here in Sweden before I go to Edinburgh. It has been a hard week so far. And I am so thankful for my friends at campus for helping me through this tough week. I think that it’s more real now that we are moving. Moving away from my dogs, my family and my friends. It has always been like months away, and now its just a couple of weeks. I am looking forward to studying abroad, but I know I will miss everyone at home. 

I have always dreamed about studying in another country. But with my depression, anxiety and panic attacks I never thought I would be possible. Now, thanks to my wonderful husband’s support and the help from my family I am finally going. 

I know that I am stronger than I think. I know I can do anything I want to do and I also know that my dogs are going to be well taken care of while I am gone. And this is a quote that I try to remember.

Picture taken buy me and the quote is by: H. Jackson Brown Jr.

I missed posting a few of my planned Christmas Countdown post this week, just because I have had these bad days. But I will post them soon. 

Have an fantastic Friday!

Love, Nea