Motivational Monday ~ 5 October

It is October and now I can really say that fall is here. The air is crisp, leaves are falling and outside my window I can see the rain falling. I am sitting in the sofa in the living room with a dog on each side. They are tired and just wants to be close.

I am trying to get some things with uni figured out and planing this week. Last week I was sick and I am still not okay. It is just a regular cold that I gotten from my parents. They did a COVID test and it was negative, so I know that I do not have COVID.

With the weather turning grey and it’s getting colder outside I think most of us could use some motivation. I don’t know if you all will thing this is motivating, but it is for me. I found this online last year and I do not know who has said it, but I love it.

This is one important thing. Let things go. Don’t let it pester in your mind. Don’t let it take over your life. Try and look forward instead of backwards. I know this is not always possible, but some things we can let go of. We can let go of so much that we usually don’t do. But let go of old fights, let go of “I wish I would have said this instead”. Or like in my case today, I almost started a fight with a professor over something that was not his fault. He had not gotten the information I thought he had gotten, but now he is trying to fix it. So I am letting go of my angry and trying to take it as it comes. I think the last couple of weeks unsureness made me go into a fight mood directly. So I am letting it all go and relaxing. Now I will take it one day at a time.

I hope you have an fantastic week. And If you can go out and look at the leaves turning. Breath in the crisp air and be thankfull for each day.

Love, Nea

Fall

Yesterday was the first official day of fall, but let’s be honest. It’s felt like fall a couple of weeks not with the crisp air, the leaves turning yellow, orange and red. We have started lightning fires in the fireplace and having more candles burning in the evenings. The other day I literally stumbled over some chanterelles in the woods when we where out walking. I picked them up so my husband how loves them could eat them with his dinner.

I have a fall cleaning in mind for the whole house, but I still have a lot of things I had planed on doing this summer left to do, like paint the hallway uppstairs. I hope I have the time to do that, with uni and everything else.

I also have a full shopping list of things for the house, like more blankets and candles. You can never have enough candles living in the woods when the electricity can go out at any second. Our supply is currently a bit low, but I will fix that soon.

I have a lot of work for Uni this week and in the end of next week I have a big exam. I am kind of nervous about this term paper I am working on and the exam, but I will do my best and try and keep my anxiety in check.

I wish you all an fantastic Wednesday and I hope I can post more updates and other things soon.

Love, Nea

Long time, no write

I been away from this blog for a couple of weeks now, and the reason is that I have not had the time or energy to write anything. I been studying for at least 50 hours a week. It has drained my energy and I still have all the other “normal” things to do. Like housework and try and spend time with my husband and dogs. I am stressed almost every hour and sleep where badly. This affects my anxiety, so I am really not feeling myself.

I am fighting to keep my mood up and keep on going. I know that it is going to be a couple of more hard weeks and then I hope it is going to be better. If not, well then I just need to keep going anyway. I am a fighter and I am so close to getting my degree. I am not going to fall down on the finish line.

But good news, the renovation on the new house is going forward and we hope to be able to move in this year. I am hoping on November, but I been an optimist before.

Now I really need to go back to studying. I just wanted to let you all know I am alive. I wish you all an amazing week.

Love, Nea

Busy, busy and autumn

I have a very stressful couple of weeks behind me and infront of me. It feels like all my time is spent on campus working on a project or driving to campus. I put in around 9 hours a day studying and about 2-3 hours driving to and from campus. I miss spending time with my dogs and my family. And I really miss spending time with my husband. Some days it seems like we don’t see each other at all. He has his plate full with work and renovating the new house. We hope we can move in before winter, but it is a slow process and he is also pulling long hours at work. So we will just have to see how it goes. I know that I will at least have a full scheduled with Uni the coming weeks.

I haven’t posted here very little and I hope that I can change that. Maybe I need to spend some time this weekend and write a couple of post and schedule them. I hate to see my blog so empty of new updates. I have so many things I want to share with you. Like my shopping on EMP-Shop and what is happening in my life.

Right now I am sitting on campus waiting for my friends to start our project that is due on Tuesday. They should be here any minute so I really need to end this post now.. But I am so happy that autumn is finally here. With the beautiful leaves and the crisp are. All I want to do is drink hot Coco and read a good book. Maybe I will get a bit of time for that this weekend.

I wish you all an wonderful day!

Love, Nea

Motivational Monday ~ September 23rd.

Happy Monday everybody! I am at Uni writing this on my phone, because I need the time on my computer battery for todays class. I forgot my charger at home, but I wanted to post something today.. so I hope this works okay.

This weekend was basicly me laying on the sofa with a cold.. so no fun. And I am still not okay, but I am here at uni because I really need to bee here for every lecture and every class. So I am trying to motivate myself and not think about my sore throath or my fever.

I really did not prepare a motivational quote for today.. so I though I woould just reuse an old one. Hope that’s fine by you.

I Love this quote because it is so true. So stop yourself from limiting yourself and go after your dreams. Deep down you know you can do it!

I wish you all an amazing week!

Love, Nea

Motivational Monday – September 16

Good morning! Today I have one of those days where it feels like I have a million things to do and so little time. This week at Uni will be packed and I have a lot of other things to do as well.

Today’s motivational quotes is from one of my favorite actors and role-models. He is an inspiration and I try to live by this quote even though my anxiety makes that hard, most days.

Some days are harder then others not to worry. And I know it can be a struggle living with mental health problems. I am not saying that this is easy for me. I want to be as open as I can here, but sometimes I feel like I need to think more about the positive sides of my life and not just focus on my mental health problems. I fight my anxiety and panic attacks almost daily. And my depression always comes along on the most difficult days. Some days I feel like I am Eeyore in Winnie the Pooh. The daily struggle is increased when I have stress in my life, and right now I got a lot of stress in my life. But I try to deal with it the best I can. It is a work in progress, but I know that if I can do this, so can you!

So now I am going to take a deep breath and try my hardest not to worry. Then I am going to get all the things I need today ready. Pack it and the dogs in the car. Drive to my parents and drop the dogs of there. Then its of to Uni for the day.

I wish you all an amazing week and try not to worry. I know its hard, but I belive in you!

Love, Nea

Last semester

Today my last semester at this University starts, or at least the last planed semester. I am thinking about taking one more semester at uni, maybe not this university. I am going to try and get a meeting with my student counselor and look at the course I want to take.

One of the songs that motivates me right now.

I only have afternoon lectures today, two of them. And the last one ends at six this evening, which means I won’t be home until earliest 7. It’s going to be a long day and I am kind of nervous. This might sound strange, I mean this is my uni, where I already gone for four semesters. But since I went my 5th semester abroad and now I am back here in Sweden, it feels kind of weird. I mean, I am not really the same woman that left Sweden. I feel like I have grown a lot and I know more of what I want in life.

I have always loved my uni, but I loved the Heriot-Watt University as well, and I know I will miss it. But it is really nice to do my last semester here in Sweden. I am looking forward to Autumn and yesterday morning I could almost smell the Autumn in the air. It was cold and crisp. This morning I almost wanted to go inside again because I thought it was so cold, but Zelda was happy just walking and sniffing on everything.

One of the motivating songs I listen to today.

Oracle went with my husband to work earlier this morning and I am dropping Zelda of there on the way to campus. This way I am not alone at home with my nerves, but I do not have to deal with two dogs when I am packing everything up. Plus Oracle gets some extra time alone with my husband, which she really needs.

I can feel my anxiety levels are kind of high right now and it helps me a lot that I have Zelda here at home with me. She is sitting next to me on the sofa right now and the music also helps. I am trying my best to keep myself from spiraling and keep myself grounded. I know I can do this. I also know that I have my husband just a phone call away if I need to talk, which also helps. But now I am going to get ready for my lectures today.

I wish you all an amazing Tuesday.

Love, Nea

September 2 ~ Motivational Monday

It’s Monday again and this week I really need to get motivated. My term at Uni starts tomorrow. My last term before I get my Bachelors exam. It is kind of scary and I feel a lot of pressure (from myself) to do good this term. I mean, I want to get my Bachelor and find a job.

So this weeks quote is to motivate me, because I am not going to give up.

I hope this motivates you, because it motivates me. I am not somebody who gives up. And I am not going to do so now.

So today I am going to try and energize myself for this weeks lectures and classes, because I know it is going to be a though and full-booked week. Tomorrow I have two lectures both 2 hours long. On Wednesday I am also having two lectures that are 2 hours long. On Thursday I am having one lecture that is 3 hours long. And on Friday I am having a group introduction thing for a big group project, and this one is 2 hours long.

I am so glad that we bought a car last week, so I won’t have to borrow a car from my family or go in with my husband early in the morning and spend my day all day at campus. Now I can just go in to my lectures and things and then go home. This means I won’t have to spend an extra of 5 hours a day at campus.

I have already eaten breakfast, been out with the dogs on a morning walk and taken some photos on them and written a grocery store list, but now I need to do some studying and fix a lot of things for tomorrow.

I wish you all an amazing week and just remember; you are not a quitter and you are strong!

Love, Nea

August 26 ~ Motivational Monday

It’s Monday again. I don’t really know where last week went. It feels like it was Monday like two days ago. Maybe that is just me..

This morning I remembered that I will go two courses this term, not just one. This is because I will be writing my Bachelors Paper this term. And this gave me a mini-freak-out. I mean I was going to need to keep my eyes on two schedules and be orginized. For those who know me know I am not really orginized. I just fake beeing orginized. So today I really needed a motivational quote to keep fighting and not be overwhelmed. I found this one:

So that is exactly what I am going to do. I am going to be tougher, because I know I can do this. Even if it sometimes feels hopeless I know I am stronger than I think. And I know you are too. Just do as I and think about everything you have done so far and what you have survived. You have survived all the bad days in your life and it has made you stronger.

Now I am going to make a gameplan for how I will be tougher, because next week uni starts again. And I will be ready for it. I wish you an kick-ass week.

Love, Nea

Exam, cloudy head and happy dance

Yesterday I had my Introduction to Law Exam. It was in one of the two new exam halls, that opened this summer at my university. It was really nice and I am actually looking forward to having more exams there. I am not completely sure how the exam went for me, but I did my best. And with two sick dogs for the last week (the dogs are feeling better today) and not that much time to study because of it, I have to be okay with that. If I need to take the exam again I just have to.

Zelda on this mornings walk.

My parents took care of the dogs when I took the exam, and my husband drove me. Which was nice. He is really busy right now, with the new house and work. Next week he is going to go away for work, and he will be gone almost the whole week. But it is the kind of project he loves to do, so that is nice.

Today I have a cloudy head. I don’t really know how to explain it any other way. What I mean is that it feels kind of fluffy in there. Like I’m not completely awake. I usually gets like this after an exam. I think it might have something to do with the fact that for 4 hours yesterday my brain had to work really hard and it needs a break for a while now.

Oracle chilling on the sofa.

So today my head and I have washed clothes (four full machines), done the dishes and vacuumed the house. I also had a kind of happy dance in the living room, because why not. It is important to enjoy life. Sometimes the best is to dance like nobody is watching. And if a neighbor saw, lets say I don’t care. I had a great time.

I have also started reading a new book today. Nora Roberts book The Collector. I have never read it before, but Nora Roberts is one of my favorite writers. The book is real good so far, and I have to admit I have read about halfway through so far. It is hard to put down.

My husband is going to be home late today. He is at my brother and sister-in-law and helping them. I could have gone with, but with the dogs still not all okay and my head cloudy I just don’t really think I am the best company. So instead I will cuddle down in the sofa with the dogs and continue reading.

I wish you all an amazing evening.

Love, Nea