Hard couple of DAYS!

Tomorrow is the day that School starts here in Edinburgh for me. It’s scarry and I have wanted to go home since Thursday when we arrived. It feels like something is missing. Like something is wrong… I can’t excplain it better.

I told my husband this and we had a long chat. He was very understanding and supportive. For this I am so greatful. We talked about how I miss the dogs. What makes my anxiety are through the roof. And all my fears right now. And you know what. It feels better now. It doesen’t feel completly fine. But maybe I will get there?!

We took the decision that we are going to give it 2 weeks and then se how I feel. How my mental health is and what I feel like doing. I am not a quiter but these few days I have wanted to go home and be with my dogs. And having my family just a short drive away. Not several hours away with an ocean between.

My reading nook in the apartment

I am sharing this with you becase I want to be honest. Life isn’t always easy and sometimes it’s a real pain in my ass. Days like this I hate my anxiety and panicdisorder. I usually can hold my thoughts and feelings in check. But appearently not right now…

My husband is my greatest supporter and that he believes in me. That I can do this is so helpful. I want to make him proud of me and show everyone els that I am stronger then they think.

I hope you all have an amazing Sunday. We are going to take a quiet evening in the apartment and get ready for tomorrow.

Love, Nea

Last day at Campus

Yesterday I had my last day at campus, here in Sweden before I go to Edinburgh. It has been a hard week so far. And I am so thankful for my friends at campus for helping me through this tough week. I think that it’s more real now that we are moving. Moving away from my dogs, my family and my friends. It has always been like months away, and now its just a couple of weeks. I am looking forward to studying abroad, but I know I will miss everyone at home. 

I have always dreamed about studying in another country. But with my depression, anxiety and panic attacks I never thought I would be possible. Now, thanks to my wonderful husband’s support and the help from my family I am finally going. 

I know that I am stronger than I think. I know I can do anything I want to do and I also know that my dogs are going to be well taken care of while I am gone. And this is a quote that I try to remember.

Picture taken buy me and the quote is by: H. Jackson Brown Jr.

I missed posting a few of my planned Christmas Countdown post this week, just because I have had these bad days. But I will post them soon. 

Have an fantastic Friday!

Love, Nea

Liseberg ~ Throwback Thursday

At the beginning of December 2010, I went to Gothenburg with my mother and a friend to visit another friend. We spent the weekend shopping and visiting Christmas at Liseberg. It was a magical weekend and I will always remember it.

Down below are pictures from Liseberg:

Christmas at Liseberg was amazing. There were lights everywhere and it was so beautiful. You really got into the Christmas spirit.

I hope that I can go there again. Maybe next year?

Nephew ~ Thankful Tuesday

It’s time for Thankful Tuesday again and today I want to share my love and how thankful I am to have my little nephew (my brothers son) in my life.

He is a constant ray of sunshine and even on my hardest days he always makes me smile. He is turning 2 years old in February and I still remember the first time I saw him. He was so tiny. He was born 6 weeks to early and gave us all a scare, but he is a healthy and happy baby. With so much love to give.

I spent some time with him on Sunday when my husband and I were to my parents for dinner. He had a cold, but still smiled and talked on. He has started talking more and more, and I think he will soon say whole sentences. Now it’s more: Bil (Car in Swedish), Mamma (mother in Swedish), Pappa (father in Swedish), där (there in Swedish) and some other words.

My nephew and sister-in-law for a walk in the woods.

He loves my dogs. Often pointing at them saying: Där! And he loves petting them and sometimes he tries giving them his toys in the hopes that they will play with them. But Oracle and Zelda don’t find cars that interesting to play with. 

And you should here his laugh. I am seriously thinking about recording it to use as my ringtone or notification sound on my phone.

As you probably can tell. I love my nephew very much.

Iron Man ~ Fangirl Friday

So with the recent death of Stan Lee, I wanted to change today’s planned post to a post that honours him. And because I wrote about Stan Lee the other day I thought it was fitting that I today write about Iron Man. A character that Stan Lee created with Larry Lieber, Don Heck and Jack Kirby.

I want to write about the first Iron Man movie that came out in 2008.

Iron Man is about Tony Stark, billionaire and playboy. He is the son of Howard Stark, a legendary inventor. Tony Stark is going to give a weapons presentation to a unit in Iraqi, but his Humvee is attacked and Tony is taken, hostage. He is hurt and to survive he must have a car battery attached to his heart. He figures out a way to make the battery smaller and now Iron Man is born. He escapes and back in at home he starts building a better Iron Man suit. But someone wants to take Stark Industries technology and use it for something. 

“Iron Man. That’s kind of catchy. It’s got a nice ring to it. I mean it’s not technically accurate. The suit’s a gold titanium alloy, but it’s kind of provocative, the imagery anyway.” ~ Tony Stark (when reading the Newspaper)

Tony Stark is portrayed by Robert Downey Jr. and his assistant Pepper Potts is portrayed by Gwyneth Paltrow.

Stan Lee has a cameo in this movie like he does in many other Marvel movies. Watch it here:

Stan Lee’s cameo in Iron Man (2008)

I love the Iron Man movies, because much like the tagline: “Heroes aren’t born. They’re built.” I feel like everyone can become a hero. And we all need heroes in our lives. And there are many different kinds of heroes. You can be someone who to stand up for those who doesn’t have a voice. Or someone who saves animals that doesn’t have a home. Or a firefighter. A policeman. A doctor. Someone who fights for human rights. 

I also love Iron Man because I think the story is brilliant. I love watching Marvel movies and tv-show because I feel like it’s quality in the production and the storylines are interesting and different. 

If you haven’t watched Iron Man yet, its about time to do so now…

Love, nea

Packing 2006 ~ Throwback Thursday

In November 2006 my family and I were busy packing up the house that I grew up in. My parents had sold the house. For many reasons and at the time it was hard, but I am thankful that they came to that decision. It can’t have been easy. They had lived in that house for about 20 years. They started our family in that house.

We moved out of the house at the beginning of December that year, to an apartment right in the middle of town. The same town my parents still live in. I live in the next town over.

I can still remember how the house looked when I grew up. How the stairs creek when I walked up them to get to my room. How the view from my room was.

And I remember the laughter that was in that house. Our traditions on Christmas. Or how my parents gave me a daffodil from our garden on my birthday every April. There was always one waiting for me to wake up.

Linnehöjden
The view from the kitchen window from the house I grew up in. 

 

I remember the dreadful green bathrooms with the green toilet and basin. And the brown floor in the kitchen.

Sometimes when I drive by my old house I wonder what has happened in these last 12 years. Have they renovated it so I would not recognise it if I went in?

Moving from the house was a chapter of my life that was ended. Moving to the city from living 15 minutes from it was a big change. That I will write about another time.

Hope you all have an amazing Thursday!

Love, Nea

October 22 ~ Motivational Monday

For this week’s Motivational Monday I have chosen this quote:

“She needed a HERO, so that’s what she became.”

I don’t know who said it, but it struck a chord in me when I first read it on Pinterest. If you are like me you have grown up reading fairytales where the Prince always saves the girl and the day. But that is not real life. Women don’t need a man to survive. I think we all need to be our own hero from time to time. And with this, I don’t say that we shouldn’t take help from men or other women. All I am saying is that we can be our own hero. We are stronger than you think. And we can do more than you think.

You are the Hero of your own story! Remember that.

Here is a picture of Wonder Women, to inspire you all!

Wonder Woman from IMDB
Picture of Wonder Woman taken from IMDB, source: https://www.imdb.com/title/tt0451279/mediaviewer/rm3724555264

Love, Nea