It’s Monday again and with everything going on in the world, I just don’t feel like writing a motivational Monday post. I am trying to keep up with the news and my thoughts are with all the people fleeing and fighting. I know a lot of people in Russia do not want this war and that it’s not their fault. I hope you all try to be kind to one another.

I don’t really know what else to write. I just feel sad today, or well, I have felt sad for a few days now. Sorry for not giving you all any motivation today. Hopefully this conflict will be solved soon and war will be over.

Love, Nea

Hey everybody,

This last week has not gone according to plan. We had a big scare because we thought my father might have had another heart attack last week. Thankfully, he did not. He is sore in his chest and taking it slow.

But this has affected my mental health and I have been more anxious than I have been in a while. I am dealing with it, but the call I got this morning that my mother and nephew have been spending time with someone that might have given them Covid makes me more anxious. And therefore I am not going to post a motivational post today. My mother is taking a test since she has cold symptoms. So we will have to wait and see what happens.

I am trying to deal with everything the best way I can and this blog will probably not be as active for the rest of the year. Not that it has been really active for a while.

Nevertheless, I wanted to wish you all an amazing week. And a Merry Christmas.

Love, Nea

It was Monday yesterday, and I forgot to do a Motivational Monday Post. I don’t know how it slipped my mind, but it did. I just remembered now that I did not post. I am kind of mad about it, but that is just how things are. I am forgetful and if I don’t write something on a list, I will forget about it.

This past weekend was a lot of fun. We had my brother, sister-in-law, my niece, and nephew here. We ate lunch together and just spent time together. It was just what I needed. There was a lot of laughing and it got loud a couple of times, and I was exhausted when they went home. But I was tired and happy.

Sunday was the first of Advent and my husband (with some help and guidance from me) had made me a Advent-calendar with packages to open every day. I opened the first on Sunday and got a book. Yesterday I got a letter board, something I have wished for a while.

And before you say anything, I have made my husband an Advent-calendar as well. I have done that on and of since we moved in together. His will mostly be different beers to try and mine will mostly be books, but also other things that are practical or something we want.

Making my husband advent calenders is fun for me. I also feel that it is a great way to show him how much I appreciate him. I know Christmas is not his favorite time of the year and that he does a lot of Christmas things for my sake, which I am very grateful for.

Now I am going to cozy down with the dogs and read my book. I wish you all an amazing week!

Love, Nea

20 years have passed since 9/11 a date that will forever be printed in my brain. A Day that I forever will remember like it was yesterday.

Today I am thinking of all the people that died, all the people who lost someone and all the people that worked to save people.

2020 is coming to an end and I am sitting here thinking about the year. It’s been a year that many people are looing forward to putting behind them. You could say I am the same, but I also thankful for what the year has teached me as well as that the year has made me appreciate my family more.

As some of you might have figured this year has been very hard for me, as well as other people with mental health problems. Being home in once house not being at uni or out and about as I usually am I have grown to understand that even though I am an introvert I need to be surrounded by people. Not all the time, but more than I have been this year. I been mostly at home in our small house in the middle of the woods. Since Marsh. It’s been challenging not to sleep all day and night. It’s been challenging not to let myself get lost in depression. I have got questions of why I am depressed. I have a happy marriage and are crazy about my husband. I live in a house away from people like I always wanted. I am studying and following my dreams. I have two amazing dogs. And so on and so on. But the thing that most people who do not have mental health challenges is that you can be depressed even if you are happy. I can’t help it that I some days struggle to get out of bed. That I have dark thoughts. I am working on it a lot, specially during autumn.

This year I have come to realise that I am stronger than I think and I have grown closer to my husband. He has gotten an understanding about my mental health that has been more honest than before. I have been more honest with my feelings and thoughts. Not only with my husband but with the people that are closest to me. I won’t be quiet about my struggels. I won’t keep my moth shut.

I have also learnt to find my triggers. What triggers me so I get anxius? What triggers me so I get panic attacks? and then makeing sure I can handel it. Not run for the hills, but mange to get through it in a different way than before. Thinking happy thoughts are not always a sullution and now I am facing a lot of things head on. Why did that tv-show trigger me? Why did that song trigger me? and so on. I feel it is important to know more about what is happening to me and being in isolation has helped a lot with that.

Another thing that has become clearer this year is my dreams, hopes and plans. I have a lot. I have 5 year plans, 10 year plans and so on. I know my own worth in a different way and truley belive that I deserv to feel great about myself. That I deserv to go after what I want. And I am happy to inform that my husband feels the same.

I am thankfull for my husband that always supports me, motivates me and makes me laugh. He is the only one that I can see myself spend my life with and he makes me happy.

I am thankful for my family. My parents, my brother, my sister-in-law, my necies and nephews, my brother-in-laws and my mother-in-law. The support and love I get from them are big part of me being able to study and fighting my mental health problems.

I am thankful for my best friend Cat. Even though she lives in Edinburgh she is a person I know is there for me. I can always count on her. And I miss her like crazy. Without her this year, I do not know how I would have made it.

And I am thankful for all my other friends that make me laugh. That support me.

And lastly but not the least. I am thankful for you. You who reads this. You who follow me. Thank you!

So with that I wish you all a happy new year! I hope that you all are staying safe and taking care of each other.

Love, Nea

When it was announced that Joe Biden won the President election the other day I almost cried. I felt hope. Hope for the world. Hope for the Black Lives Matter Movement. Hope for the environment. Hope for the future. Hope for a kinder world.

I know that Trump is claiming voting fraud, but I do not believe in that. He has no evidence. He is like a toddler having a tamper tantrum because he is not getting his way. I hoped he would take the defeat gracefully, but he does not. I think there will be a lot of pettiness from him the next coming months until Joe Biden takes over as a president, I just hope Trump does not make to much chaos.

I saw on Social Media that there are people who believe that Trump will have to be forcefully remove from the White House and they wish that Chris Evan dressed as Captain America should do the removal of Trump. I think that would be an amazing idea, but not probable.

Another thing to remember with Joe Biden wining the election is that now Kamala Harris is going to be the Vice-Precedent of the United States of America. This is historical and amazing. She will be the first woman in the position, but also the first black woman. She is a role-model for so many young girls, not only in America but over the world. A women can be in power. A woman can do what ever she sets her mind to.

“My mother used to tell me – she would tell my sister – my mother would look at me and she’d say, ‘Kamala, you may be the first to do many things, but make sure you are not the last.’ And that’s why breaking those barriers is worth it. As much as anything else, it is also to create that path for those who will come after us.”
~ Kamala Harris

As I said this election gave me hope and I hope it did the same for you.

Love, Nea

Ps. Adding Kamala Harris and Joe Biden’s speeches down below for those of you who want to listen to them again or for the first time.