Category: Life

Today is the day

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Good Morning,

Today my classes will begin again. Today I have an afternoon class, so I am still at home with the dogs. But I have lots of things to do before I go to campus today. I have a little bit of reading to do and some other school-related things to do. But first I wanted to write something here.

Yesterday afternoon my parents came back with Oracle. It was really nice to have her home again. I know she has had a wonderful time with my parents and it has been nice to have some alone time with Zelda. But I still miss Oracle when she isn’t with us. Zelda had obliviously also missed her “sister” because she was really happy seeing her again yesterday. And this morning when I woke up they were sleeping in the same dog bed together. Almost hugging. It was so cute.

My husband and I slept the first night in the new bed tonight. I woke up with no back pain. It felt wonderful. But the bed still smells new. I don’t really know how to explain it, but it was hard to fall asleep. I know I will get used to the “smell” eventually and that it won’t smell new forever.

Right now I am sitting in the sofa with Oracle sleeping on the left of my and Zelda sleeping on the right of me. I am waiting on a call from my husband telling me if he is going to have to be gone for a few days because of work.

Now I am going to do some reading.. Have a fantastic day!

Love, Nea

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Our new bed.. 

 

Sunday morning

On By NeaIn About me, Anxiety, Depression, Everyday life, Life, Mental Health, Panic attacks, UniversityLeave a comment

Hello,

Today is the day before my first class of the term. I feel ready, but I am a bit anxious about starting again. As I have previously told I have a problem with a lot of people and I know that every class starts tomorrow so there will be a lot of people on campus tomorrow.  I am afraid of having a panic attack, even though I know that if I do I will be alright. I have my trick for coping. Trying to think of things that make me happy. Looking at pictures. And if I don’t feel safe where I am, I try to get somewhere I feel safer. And if none of these things helps I usually call someone to talk to a bit. Tell them about my problems and we talk til I feel better. More relaxed.

I don’t take any pills for my mental health. Doctors have said that they can write me prescriptions, but I want to overcome this on my own. I don’t look down on people that take pills, I understand them. I am not saying I am stronger or better. I just say that everyone must do their own choices. And maybe one day I will need to take the pills, but not now.

And I can tell you I am on medication for my asthma and my allergies. Just not anything for my depression, anxiety or panic attacks.

If there is anything you want to know. Please ask.

Love, Nea

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Picture from this mornings walk.

New month, new challenges!

On By NeaIn Life, Love, Mental Health, ZeldaLeave a comment

Hello,

Yesterday was not a good day, but I was determined to make today a good day. This morning my husband and I got up early. He walked Zelda over to my brother’s house because he was going to take care of her.

Then after we ate breakfast we went IKEA in Örebro and got ourselves a new bed. Our old one has been giving ous backpains and we decided that we needed a new bed the other day.

Oracle went on vacation over the weekend with my parents yesterday. So no dog was left alone at home. We were gone for a few hours and came home with an amazing bed. And its bigger than the old one, so now my husband is really happy.

We also bought new pillows for the bed and new linens. So it was a really good day.

But I had some problems in the store. Too many people are one of my triggers for my panic attacks. I had some small ones, but I kept powering through.

Tonight we will be sleeping on the pullout sofa because the bed needs to breathe for at least 12 hours.

I will try to write more about my panic tomorrow. Now I am going to enjoy an evening with my husband.

Love, Nea

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A picture from our evening walk with Zelda.

One of those days.

On By NeaIn Everyday life, Life, Mental Health, Oracle, ZeldaLeave a comment

Good morning,

Today is one of those days when it’s just hard to get up out of bed. But I have made myself a promise. Never give up. Never. So I forced myself out of bed. Got dressed, feed the dogs and went out with the dogs. Ate breakfast. And decided that I should share with you.

If you are having a bad day, just remember is just a bad day. Remember all the good things in your life. I remember my wonderful husband that always are there for me. My two amazing dogs. My supporting family. My outstanding friends.

Because I have my dogs, I need to go out with the dogs. I need to feed them. Because they need me. This is one of the things that make me never give up. Never give in.

I don’t have a bad life, but sometimes I have bad days. Sometimes I have a couple of bad days in a row. But I will never give up. And it is always okay to ask for help.

I hope you all will have an amazing day. And never ever stop fighting.

Love, Nea

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The dogs on this mornings walk.

A regular Thursday

On By NeaIn Everyday life, Life, Oracle, ZeldaLeave a comment

Good morning,

Today it’s Thursday and soon it will be the weekend. I am still sick and I have no real strength to get things done. The dogs think I am boring because I don’t play as much with them as I usually do. But they love to cuddle with me.

On the morning walk, they found blueberries. They ate a lot of them and it gave me some time to just take a breath and enjoy being outside. It was a quiet morning walk. We just saw one neighbour in a distant.

Today I don’t really know what I am going to do. What I really should be doing is:

  1. Laundry
  2. Empty the dishwasher
  3. Fill the dishwasher and start it
  4. Vacuum the house
  5. Read the three chapters I have to read before Monday’s

But what I want to do is:

  1. Lay on the couch and watch Netflix.
  2. Sleep
  3. Take a photo for my header here on the blog.
  4. Cuddle with the dogs.
  5. Write some more posts on this blog.

Maybe I could do a little bit of both. Now it’s time for breakfast.

Have an amazing day and don’t forget you are all fantastic!

Love, Nea

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Zelda and Oracle eating blueberries on this mornings walk.

Still sick!

On By NeaIn Life, Oracle, Zelda2 Comments

Good morning,

I am still sick. But I am trying to do the best of the situation. Will be having a quiet day at home today too. My husband is at work. The dogs are both sleeping. Zelda is sleeping in the armchair and Oracle is sleeping on the back of the sofa.

Today I will start reading my course literature for my statistics classes that start on Monday. I want to be prepared for my first lecture. And I will try to get some writing done as well. I have so many ideas in my head that need to get out of my head and on to paper.

Right now I have a problem tear myself from Netflix. I am looking at Chesapeake Shores. I kind of love the series, and I have looked at almost 1,5 seasons in two days. This is what I do when I am sick. Just taking it easy and watching Netflix. So that is what I will continue doing now.

Have a wonderful day,

Love, Nea.

How Oracle and Zelda are both sleeping right now. ❤

Quiet day at home!

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Hello world,

today I am taking a quiet day at home. I’m feeling a bit sick. I think I have a cold coming on, so I am taking it slow today. Even tho it feels like I have a million things to do. It can be really nice to just slow down for a bit. I am doing some laundry and I have looked at things for next weeks semester start. My schedule is more packed than I would have wanted it to be. But that is life. You just have to make the best of it.

This morning a went on a walk with my two dogs, Oracle and Zelda. You could feel the rain hanging in the air, but it was still nice. It really starting to feel like autumn is here to stay. I will miss the summer, but I love all the different seasons because they all bring something I love.

Like Autumn with the crisp air and the leaves falling down, that the dogs love to play in. The colours are so beautiful and amazing to photograph. And taking long walks with the dogs and my husband is cozy. And then coming inside and crawling down under a blanket on the couch and just holding on to each other. Maybe just talking, watching something on Netflix or just reading.

Right now I am sitting on the couch with the dogs. Zelda is snoring beside me and Oracle is half asleep. They love being close to me and I love it. Dogs are really good companions to have. I can’t imagine my life without them.

Now I have to take care of the clothes in the washing machine. Have a nice day.

Love, Nea

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Zelda in my lap yesterday. She wanted to be with my when I was writing.

My wedding day

On By NeaIn A, Great Britain, Life, Love, Okategoriserade, Travle, WeddingLeave a comment

A and I eloped. We didn’t want to have a big party where everyone was looking at us when we exchanged our vows. So we did it legally in Sweden at the city hall in Örebro. It took about 10 minutes and our witnesses were my brother, my sister-in-law and my nephew. My brother found out the day before that he was going to witness our wedding. But this is not what we count as our wedding day. My sister-in-law had known about our wedding since September last year, because she helped me with finding my dream dress and planing so they could come with us to England.

We had our real wedding 13 days later, the date that we have in our rings, in Wales in Great Britain. My brother and sister-in-law were our witnesses this time too. It was just us four. And my brother was taking the photos. We had our private ceremony in a grove. It was perfect and everything I wanted it to be. My husbands vow where amazing and I cried. I will remember this day forever.

It was all just what I wanted it to be. And I am really pleased with how we were true to ourselves and did it our way. Our parents got a text in the evening on our wedding day, with a picture and we wrote like: so this happened on our vacation.

We have gotten mixed responses on our wedding, but for the most part, it has been positive.

We had a wedding party to celebrate with our family and friends last Friday. I will write more about it later. And I know I will write more about our wedding later too. It’s one of the best days of my life..

Have an amazing day!

Love, Nea

 

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One week left

On By NeaIn Life, Oracle, University, ZeldaLeave a comment

Good morning,

I started this morning with a walk with my dogs. And I realized that in one week does my forth semester at Örebro University start. It’s exciting and a little scary. I am studying statistics and law this semester. But my major is business administration.

I love studying, but this summer has been amazing. I don’t really don’t want it to end. This summer I married the love of my life. It’s something I will never forget as long as I will live. And I have sent a lot of time with my wonderful dogs, Oracle and Zelda.

I hope you all an amazing day,

Love, Nea

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Picture taken on our morning walk. The dog on the left is Zelda and the dog on the right is Oracle.

My first post!

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This is my first post. I have been thinking about what I wanted to share with you.. I was thinking about just telling you lite about my self and why I want with this blog.

I have started this blog because I want to share my life with you all. It’s going to be kind of a diary, not really that secret. And I will write about all the things I find interesting and things that happen in my life.

My name is Linnéa, but almost everyone calls me Nea. I am 28 years old. I am currently a student at Örebro University. I am also a wife since July 2018 to A. We have been together for almost 12 years. And we live in a small town in the middle of Sweden. The population is a little bit over 7000.

For about 10 years have I been living with panic disorder, anxiety and depression. It was so bad at one point that I couldn’t leave my apartment. But I took control over my life with the help of my amazing husband, family and friends.  We moved to a house and got a dog, Oracle (I will tell you more about her later) and I trained her to be my therapy dog. Without this, I don’t know where I would be right now. I am forever thankful for every amazing person in my life and for my dog, Oracle.

I hope you like my blog. I am really new to this, so please be kind to me.

Love, Nea