Amazing start to the week

Today is a really good day. I had a really good day at campus and I feel so happy about that. I had some minor panic attacks and anxiety, but nothing that affected me in any major way. I just worked through it.

When I woke up this morning I was exhausted, after a night of very little sleep, and this because when I had gotten to sleep last night I woke up because there was a really high crashing sound. Both my husband and I investigated but could not find anything in the apartment. And this made me anxious, which is why I slept poorly. This morning we got the answer to what the noise had been. A roofing tile had come loose and crashed down right outside our front door.

Today I had a tutorial this morning, then two hours free and then 2 hours lecture. It was quite an interesting lecture and I think I have learnt something new at least.

Before we got home from campus I had a meetup with my study partner for an assignment and I think we will be able to do a fantastic assignment together.

Now I am going to continue working on my essay that is due in 11 days. I hope you have a magical week.

Love, Nea

Self-Care Saturday (kind of)

It Saturday and I thought that I wanted to share a post of self-care again. I have not really had time for this blog this last couple of weeks. I have spent so much time as possible to get into living here in Edinburgh. It’s been scary and amazing at the same time. I really love it here, but I miss my dogs and my family.

I have had problems with anxiety and panic attacks these last couple of weeks. I have and am scared of the world outside the door of our apartment. Every day has been a kind of struggle. I don’t want to go home, but I am tired of being scared. I am tired of the anxiety in my body every damn day. I just want to feel good.

Do you know what I do? I hug my husband a lot. I try and think of things I want to do here in Scotland. Things I want to see. And I try to read as much as possible about Scotland. I take walks with my husband in our Neighbourhood. Edinburgh is a fantastic city. I try talking to new people in school.

Sign that I see almost every day when I walk around the river Leith.

I try as hard as I can to not let my fears and anxiety keep me from living. I am only here for about four months more and I know that I don’t want to miss out because I am scared. I mean, I am here. If I have gotten this far I can do it all.

I know this was not really a self-care Saturday post as I usually did them but I wanted to share this… And maybe I can try to write a better post next Saturday.

Have a fantastic Saturday night. I am going to eat good food and watch The Voice UK.

Love, Nea

First February

January is finally over. And I welcome February with open arms. Yesterday we had the coldest day since we moved her to Edinburgh. I was freezing so much when we stood waiting for the bus in the morning. But I know they have it so much colder in Sweden so I should not complain. And that other places are even colder.

Yesterday it was exactly 4 weeks since we moved here. And it feels strange. It feels like we haven’t been living here for so long. And I realised this week that now I have done 1/3 of by studying before I have Spring Break. 8 weeks left of lectures and tutorials. And 5 essays to write. Then I have 3 weeks of Spring break where I can study for my two exams.

This week we have taken it easy because I am still sick. I want this cold to disappear. There are so many things I want to do here in Edinburgh, and staying in the apartment with a fever is not one of them. Hopefully, I will have the energy to take a walk this afternoon.

Now I am going to study some before Lunch. I wish you all a fantastic Friday.

Love, Nea

This Week..

It’s Friday and I am sick. I have a cold and all I want to do is to sleep, but I have so much schoolwork to do. The plan for this weekend was to study, do some shopping and to meet up with an old friend that also lives here in Edinburgh, but now it will be a weekend of trying to get well and to study.

I have tried to make a study schedule to keep track of all my classes and all the essays I need to write before April. I am still feeling a little overwhelmed but I know that I can do this.

This week has been a bit hard because I have been feeling the cold all week, and yesterday I actually only made it to one of my lectures, and I feel really bad about it. I was sleeping and trying to get rid of my fever instead.

There has not happened a lot of fun things this week. Mostly been studying and going to campus. But I have also been thinking about all the places I want to see here in Scotland. There are a lot of wonderful places and I think I need to make a list because my Google Map is full of places tagged that I want to visit.

Now I am going to start on my workload for Mondays mornings tutorial. Hopefully, I can finish it today so can start working on Monday’s lecture readings, Tuesday’s tutorial work and my essay that’s due in the middle of February.

Have a Fantastic Friday,

Love, Nea

Monday morning

It’s just a couple of hours until the first lecture of the day. And this is the first lecture I will have in this course here in Edinburgh. I am a little nervous. I missed last Monday’s lecture because I was enrolling and I was told that there were no lectures at all that Monday, but there where.

I have been reading up for this lecture and I hope it’s as interesting as I believe it to be. I hope I get a great Professor that is easy to listen to.

I have been spending the morning reading and trying to get a good look at this week’s schoolwork. I believe that I really need to stay focused on the work ahead of me. In Sweden, we only read one subject at a time. But here in Edinburgh, I read four at the same time. I have 5 papers that are all due before the first of April and then two exams at the end of April beginning of May.

I wish you all a fantastic Monday.

Love, Nea

Motivational Monday

I am still having a hard time here in Edinburgh, but I am not giving up. I am trying to do every day the best I can. Therefore I think today’s motivational quote is perfect for me right now.

Write it on your heart that every day is the best day in the year.  Ralph Waldo Emerson

And this is what I intend to do every day. I want to give it my very best and get these 5 months abroad a real chance.

I wish you all a fantastic Monday.