Tag: Oracle

Feeling down

On By NeaIn Anxiety, Depression, Life, Love, Mental Health, Oracle, Panic attacks, Studying, UniversityLeave a comment

I don’t really know what happened. I have had an okay day, but now in the afternoon, I started feeling down. I am feeling like I want to crawl down in a hole and not come out. This is a feeling I hate to have and I am trying to turn this day around.

I am feeling drained by the lack of sleep and the worries about Oracle. By what I have observed today I want to say that she is feeling better, but I am not sure. I have spent the last two days at home, but today I want into campus to have a computer lab about statistics. My father had the dogs while I was away and I am really thankful for that.

Tomorrow I have an early lecture and then I really need to continue with my studying for the exam. I am a little nervous about the exam, but I am going to do my best and that just have to be enough.

Right now I am fighting to keep my eyes open, but I have so much more to do today. The dogs need to get food and then a walk. My husband is cooking dinner for us, so I need to eat. And I really should pack my bag for tomorrow. And put the dog cages in the car, so I don’t need to stress about that tomorrow morning. Plus I have a few emails I need to send away.

Love, Nea

October 18 ~ Throwback Thursday

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Todays Throwback is a picture of Oracle enjoying the autumn sun in October 2014.

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She is about 1,5 years old in this picture and she still loves to roll around in the grass or snow. Sometimes I still believe that she is a puppy. She acts like a puppy occasionally and I love her zest for life.

I also want to share this song that came out in October 2014:

I still think its really good and I have it on my playlist for when I am cleaning the house.

Have an amazing day!

Love, Nea

Oracle ~ Thankful Tuesday

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This week Thankful Tuesday is about my Welsh Corgi Cardigan Oracle. She has been by my side for about 5 years time now and I am so grateful for all the things she has helped me with.

She’s largely one of the reasons I’ve been able to fight my mental health problems. When I got her I needed to start going out with her. A puppy needs to go out a lot if you don’t want pee and poop in the house. And when I was out with her I didn’t have time to be worried about being outside alone. I had my puppy and she needed my attention.

And before we got her, my husband (then boyfriend) had a demand that I should have my drivers license before we got a dog so I could drive to her to the vet in case of an emergency. So I got my drivers license about a month before we got her.

When Oracle got older I started teaching her what I needed her to do if I got a panic attack and she was a quick learner. She is wonderful and I love her.

She always makes me laugh. It can be from how she sleeps, or how she plays. She loves lying close to me on the sofa. And every time it snows she plays in the snow like a puppy. She has a joy of life that is contagious.

I am so thankful to have her in my life.

Right now she is sleeping next to me and it feels safe to have her with me.

Sick dog..

On By NeaIn Life, Love, Oops..., OracleLeave a comment

I haven’t been that active here these last couple of days, because I have a sick dog at home.

On Saturday Oracle started having some problems with her stomach and since then she has been sick. My husband and I have been taking turns going out with her, both day and night. And yesterday Oracle was with my husband at work so I could go to campus for a lecture. Zelda was alone at doggie daycare, but it went really well and she was so good.

Today I am staying home with both dogs. I don’t want to leave them home alone and yesterday is the first day Oracle actually ate something. Right now she is laying beside me on the sofa sleeping. She seeks closeness all the time and I am just trying to be here for her.

This morning my husband took her out for a quick walk while I gave Zelda her breakfast. Oracle is eating food that is gentle for her tummy so she can’t eat her usually dog food. When Oracle came inside she walked around for a bit and then she tried to poop, so I got up to get her out again, but she sat down on the rug in the living room and pulled her self forward with her butt pressed against the rug. She left a brown mark after her. I was not pleased, but not angry at her. She is sick. So I called my husband who had just left and he came back and cleaned up the rug while I walked both dogs outside.

It feels like Oracle is getting better, but I still want to keep an eye on her and that’s why I am staying home today. I don’t want to leave her with anyone else.

Now I am going to try to get some studying done before I need to take the dogs outside again.

Have an amazing day!

Love, Nea

Throwback Thursday

On By NeaIn Anxiety, Depression, Mental Health, Oracle, Panic attacks, picture, Thankful TuesdayLeave a comment

For this week’s Throwback Thursday I want to share this picture with you:

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This is my dog Oracle when she was 8 weeks old and her mother. This was the day we brought her home with us. It was one of the happiest days of my life. I finally had my own dog after wanting one for so many years.

This was taken in March 2013 and I can’t believe that Oracle is going to be 6 years in January next year. She is one of the best parts of my life and I owe so much to her.

I don’t actually remember if I have written anything about this before, but I have trained Oracle to be my therapy dog. And she has been there for me whenever I need her and I love her so much.  She doesn’t have to work as much now as she did a couple of years ago but she still helps me when I need her to.

I am definitely going to write more about my dogs because they are a big part of my life.

 

Throwback thursday

On By NeaIn Life, Love, Okategoriserade, Oracle, Throwback, ZeldaLeave a comment

My first ever throwback post. And for this I have chosen to share this picture:

It’s of my dogs Zelda and Oracle in September 2016. As you can see Zelda is just a little puppy. 😍 And she’s about 3 months old.

I remember Oracles questioning look one me when we took Zelda with us home. Oracle was used to being the only dog in the family and all the sudden she had a baby sister. It was a bit hard at first. But now Oracle adores and loves her little sister. And many nights they fall asleep laying like this together.

Moody monday

On By NeaIn Anxiety, Depression, Everyday life, Life, Mental Health, Oracle, Panic attacks, Studying, University, ZeldaLeave a comment

Today is a hard day for me. The thoughts in my head are spinning around and I don’t feel like I can get a grip on them. I have tried to do something all day. But I feel like a balloon that the air has left.

I want to crawl back in bed and read a good book or just sleep. And the dogs went back to doggie-daycare this morning. So I have been home alone until I went to campus now in the afternoon. I had a late lecture. And I had to fight with my mind to get there. But I did it. I didn’t give up. And I could stay the whole lecture.

After the lecture, I went to pick up the dogs at daycare. My husband dropped them off this morning. Oracle and Zelda were really happy to see me.

Now I am just trying to calm down and breath. I have a long day tomorrow too and every other day this week. But I am a fighter.

Have an amazing evening.

Love, Nea

Today is the day

On By NeaIn About me, Everyday life, Life, Oracle, University, ZeldaLeave a comment

Good Morning,

Today my classes will begin again. Today I have an afternoon class, so I am still at home with the dogs. But I have lots of things to do before I go to campus today. I have a little bit of reading to do and some other school-related things to do. But first I wanted to write something here.

Yesterday afternoon my parents came back with Oracle. It was really nice to have her home again. I know she has had a wonderful time with my parents and it has been nice to have some alone time with Zelda. But I still miss Oracle when she isn’t with us. Zelda had obliviously also missed her “sister” because she was really happy seeing her again yesterday. And this morning when I woke up they were sleeping in the same dog bed together. Almost hugging. It was so cute.

My husband and I slept the first night in the new bed tonight. I woke up with no back pain. It felt wonderful. But the bed still smells new. I don’t really know how to explain it, but it was hard to fall asleep. I know I will get used to the “smell” eventually and that it won’t smell new forever.

Right now I am sitting in the sofa with Oracle sleeping on the left of my and Zelda sleeping on the right of me. I am waiting on a call from my husband telling me if he is going to have to be gone for a few days because of work.

Now I am going to do some reading.. Have a fantastic day!

Love, Nea

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Our new bed..