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Oracle ~ Thankful Tuesday

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This week Thankful Tuesday is about my Welsh Corgi Cardigan Oracle. She has been by my side for about 5 years time now and I am so grateful for all the things she has helped me with.

She’s largely one of the reasons I’ve been able to fight my mental health problems. When I got her I needed to start going out with her. A puppy needs to go out a lot if you don’t want pee and poop in the house. And when I was out with her I didn’t have time to be worried about being outside alone. I had my puppy and she needed my attention.

And before we got her, my husband (then boyfriend) had a demand that I should have my drivers license before we got a dog so I could drive to her to the vet in case of an emergency. So I got my drivers license about a month before we got her.

When Oracle got older I started teaching her what I needed her to do if I got a panic attack and she was a quick learner. She is wonderful and I love her.

She always makes me laugh. It can be from how she sleeps, or how she plays. She loves lying close to me on the sofa. And every time it snows she plays in the snow like a puppy. She has a joy of life that is contagious.

I am so thankful to have her in my life.

Right now she is sleeping next to me and it feels safe to have her with me.

Sick dog..

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I haven’t been that active here these last couple of days, because I have a sick dog at home.

On Saturday Oracle started having some problems with her stomach and since then she has been sick. My husband and I have been taking turns going out with her, both day and night. And yesterday Oracle was with my husband at work so I could go to campus for a lecture. Zelda was alone at doggie daycare, but it went really well and she was so good.

Today I am staying home with both dogs. I don’t want to leave them home alone and yesterday is the first day Oracle actually ate something. Right now she is laying beside me on the sofa sleeping. She seeks closeness all the time and I am just trying to be here for her.

This morning my husband took her out for a quick walk while I gave Zelda her breakfast. Oracle is eating food that is gentle for her tummy so she can’t eat her usually dog food. When Oracle came inside she walked around for a bit and then she tried to poop, so I got up to get her out again, but she sat down on the rug in the living room and pulled her self forward with her butt pressed against the rug. She left a brown mark after her. I was not pleased, but not angry at her. She is sick. So I called my husband who had just left and he came back and cleaned up the rug while I walked both dogs outside.

It feels like Oracle is getting better, but I still want to keep an eye on her and that’s why I am staying home today. I don’t want to leave her with anyone else.

Now I am going to try to get some studying done before I need to take the dogs outside again.

Have an amazing day!

Love, Nea

Motivational Monday ~ October 15

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It’s time for Motivational Monday! After the last week, I really need some motivation and this one is one of my favourites when times are tough.

“Tough times don’t last, tough people do!” 

I love this quote. It always gives me hope and I know that tough times will end. Something I really need to remember right now. Its been a tough couple of weeks with a lot of panic attacks and anxiety. And I been feeling depressed. But I am still fighting.

So remember this and I hope you all have an amazing week!

Love, Nea

 

World Mental Health Day

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I totally missed that October 10th was World Mental Health Day 2018. Don’t really know how? But I am doing a post on it now instead.

What I really want to share with all of you about Mental Health is that is no shame in having problems with your mental health. More people than you know have problems with their mental health and I wish more people talked about it.

I remember when I started going to a psychologist when I was about 14 years old and so many people had a problem with me talking about it. I should stay quiet and not talk about it. So I that’s what I did. I felt ashamed over how I was feeling and that affected me for a really long time.

Then when I started getting my panic attacks, big ones, when I was 17 I didn’t want to talk to anybody about it. I was ashamed over it. But I got help and started understanding that it wasn’t anything to be ashamed over. Both through my family and celebrities that have been very open about their mental health problems.

I started telling people that I had been diagnosed with anxiety, depression and panic disorder. I was told by a teacher when I finally came back to High School after being home sick for about a year, that I should be locked up in an insane asylum. That I was a danger to everyone around me. That only made me angrier and more determined to share with everyone.

My husband has always been by my side in all of this and when I told him that I wanted to start a blog to share my life with people he helped me get it started. He knows all about my fears and he still loves me. And I am worth that love.

I now that there are a lot of people out there that doesn’t have the support that I have had. But just remember that you are loved and it will get better with time. Just keep fighting! And you are not alone.

And to you who have a person with mental health problems in your life. Don’t try to fix it all. Just listen to them. Love them and be there for them.

Love, Nea

 

 

Situation Sunday, October 14

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So a lot of things are spinning in my head. So much has happened these last few weeks. It feels like the world is in chaos. With the extreme weather situation around the world. Judge Kavanaugh being sworn into office.

I am starting to wonder what is happening? I thought something like this would never happen after #MeToo. I am not claiming to be the best judge of things like this but I am surprised at the outcome of the vote. But I have read that many more people have become registered to vote in Novembers election.

Like you know, I don’t live in America. But this still affected me. We have #MeToo here in Sweden and I am scared that the change we need is not coming. At least not as fast as we want it to. I hate being afraid to walk alone at night. I want to feel safe in this world.

The weather around the world is also making me scared. I don’t remember there being as much extreme weather when I grew up. It feels like no one is really taking the situation seriously. IPCC has realised their 2018 report, but I have not read about it anywhere. But now that I googled it, some information came up.

I am trying to think more about what I am buying, like organic food and to have bags with me when I go grocery shopping. And to not wast things. I donate my clothes to people how need them when I can’t wear them anymore. And I try to not buy useless things. We eat vegetarian food at least once a week. I walk to the store instead of taking the car. I know I can do so much more and I am trying to be better.

What are you doing for the world to be better? Both for the people and the environment?

On another note. I missed World Mental Health day, but I am writing a post about that and posting it later.

This post was more ranting than anything else and I am sorry for that. I just want to share my concerns about the world.

Self-Care Saturday

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I am a firm believer in self-care, that’s why I want to share with you one of the things I do to take care of my self. And that is: taking the time on a busy day and just take a couple of deep breaths and give me time to not stress. To not think of anything other than my self. In these moments I don’t look at social media, I don’t study, I don’t answer emails and I don’t think of anyone else but me. This gives me a chance to relax and just feel how I am feeling and it gives me perspective over so many things.

I am not the best person on self-care, but I am trying to get better. That is another reason why I want to share with you what I do over the next following weeks. We all need to take care of yourself and sometimes be a little selfish with our time. To charge your batteries.

I really like this that Lalah Delia said:

“Self-care is how you take your power back.”

So please take care of yourself. You are an amazing person that is entitled to put yourself first. Just take 5 minutes to breathe on a stressful day. Drop everything and just breath. It always makes me feel better.

Love, Nea

Fangirl Friday ~ Breakfast at Tiffany’s

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So this is turning in to a real Audrey Hepburn week with my Motivational Monday and my WCW posts for this week, but that is just because she was a wonderful actress and had a great impact on my life.

The week’s movie is “Breakfast at Tiffany’s“. I love this movie because it always makes me feel better. For you who haven’t seen it here is a short description of the plot:

Holly Golightly (Audrey Hepburn) is living in New York City and in the first scene she is eating breakfast outside of Tiffany’s window. She is a party girl and has a lot of men in her life. She meets her new neighbour Paul Varjak (George Peppard), a writer. Paul soon realises that their more to Holly than meets the eye and her past comes for a visit.

Audrey Hepburn Singing “Moon River” in “Breakfast at Tiffany’s”.

Some of my favourite quotes from the movie:

  • “People don’t belong to people.”
  • “A girl can’t read that sort of thing without her lipstick.”
  • “Anyone who ever gave you confidence, you owe them a lot.”
  • “It should take you exactly four seconds to cross from here to that door. I’ll give you two.”
  • “I’ll never get used to anything. Anybody that does, they might as well be dead.”

 

I hope you watch this movie. It really is a classic.

Throwback Thursday

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For this week’s Throwback Thursday I want to share this picture with you:

Oralce and Aylenblogg

This is my dog Oracle when she was 8 weeks old and her mother. This was the day we brought her home with us. It was one of the happiest days of my life. I finally had my own dog after wanting one for so many years.

This was taken in March 2013 and I can’t believe that Oracle is going to be 6 years in January next year. She is one of the best parts of my life and I owe so much to her.

I don’t actually remember if I have written anything about this before, but I have trained Oracle to be my therapy dog. And she has been there for me whenever I need her and I love her so much.  She doesn’t have to work as much now as she did a couple of years ago but she still helps me when I need her to.

I am definitely going to write more about my dogs because they are a big part of my life.

 

Audrey Hepburn – WCW

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For as long as I can remember I have always looked up to Audrey Hepburn. My father introduced me to her movies when I was a teenager and I love them. My favourites are: “Sabrina” and “Breakfast at Tiffany’s“.

This is why she today is my Woman Crush Wednesday. What I mean about WCW is a strong woman, alive or dead, that I look up to. This Monday I used one of Audrey Hepburn’s quotes in my Motivational Monday post. She has had a big influence on many peoples lives and I know that she has had a big one in my life. She is my role model for so many reasons.

I know that after she had done a lot of successful movies she started working with UNICEF. She said this about UNICEF:

“I can testify to what UNICEF means to children because I was among those who received food and medical relief right after World War II.”

She was a great humanitarian and I love so many things she has said. Her compassion and kindness. I have read somewhere that she didn’t think she was beautiful. But I think she was beautiful both on the inside and the outside. I love how she wanted to help other people. This is another favorite quote from her:

“Remember; if you ever need a helping hand, it’s at the end of your arm, as you get older, remember you have another hand: The first is to help yourself, the second is to help others” 

I am sad that she died when she was only 63 years old, in 1993. I was three years old at the time, and I didn’t even know who she was. But now I know and I will always love her movies.

And I have to admit I have watched Sabrina and Breakfast at Tiffany’s so many times that I think I remember all the lines. And one thing that really surprised me was this quote:

“I’m an introvert… I love being by myself, love being outdoors, love taking a long walk with my dogs and looking at the trees, flowers, the sky.”

This because its so much like myself and she was a big movie star. I didn’t believe that they could be Introverts. But I have learned that this is so wrong. And I am amazed by all the things she has done. She really followed her dreams and did it her way. She will forever be a Role Model for me.

Here is a list of some of the best quotes Audrey Hepburn has said:

  • “For beautiful eyes, look for the good in others; for beautiful lips, speak only words of kindness; and for poise, walk with the knowledge that you are never alone.”

  • “I believe in pink. I believe that laughing is the best calorie burner. I believe in kissing, kissing a lot. I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day and I believe in miracles.”

  • “Make-up can only make you look pretty on the outside but it doesn’t help if you’re ugly on the inside. Unless you eat the make-up.”

  • “Pick the day. Enjoy it – to the hilt. The day as it comes. People as they come… The past, I think, has helped me appreciate the present – and I don’t want to spoil any of it by fretting about the future.”

If you want to know more about Audrey Hepburn google about her or read one of the many books about her life. And of course, watch some of her movies. They are fantastic.

 

Overslept on Hump Day!

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Today I overslept.. Or no not really. I woke up with my husband this morning and then he and the dogs left for work and doggie daycare. And I ate breakfast in peace and with no stress. But then I fell asleep on the sofa and woke up just 30 minutes before my lecture. And I have 1 hours drive to campus and I had nothing packed for school and I needed to ready. So I decided to not stress because I know I would only get to campus when it max was 20 minutes left of the lecture.

So now I am sitting here at home and trying to wake up. I have another class this afternoon that I am going to go to. But first I am eating my lunch at home and then I am going to campus. The class is a late one and right now I am fine with it. This is the last day this week I am having a late day on campus.

This has really been a Hump Day so far. I am looking forward until this day is over. I don’t know how long my husband is working today. He might have to do some overtime again. But luckily he bought groceries yesterday so we have everything at home to cook dinner tonight. Just one of the many reasons why I love him.

I hope you all have an amazing Hump Day.

Love, Nea