Category: Life

Saturdays is a study day

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Sitting at home feeling a bit sorry for myself. I am still feeling my cold and I had plans with my husband to go to an important and motivation work event a couple of hours away from here. I opted to stay at home and that’s why I am feeling sorry for myself. But I need to focus on my health.

I have been studying and resting. My husband went with without me and I am glad that he got to meet all the amazing people that would attend this event. And right now I am waiting for him to get home and tell me everything about the event.

I have found a new series on Netflix, or at least new for me. It’s called When Calls the Heart. I am going to watch an episode now.

Have an amazing evening.

Love, Nea

Evening walk!

Clumsy Friday

On By NeaIn About me, Life, University2 Comments

Everybody who knows me knows that I am extremely clumsy. Like walk-into-the-table- or fall-over-your-own-feet-clumsy. I have over my life done many clumsy things and today is no different.

Today I have walked into the kitchen table, stumped my toes in one of the kitchen chairs and slipped in the woods when I was walking with the dogs. And I almost fell down some steps in the auditorium I had a lecture in today. The almost is important.

My husband knows that I usually have bruises because I walk into things. And we have a pair of crutches at home at all times because I need them a couple of times every year.

This summer I doped my phone into the dog’s water bowl. It worked for an hour, but then it started sending strange messengers. My father got a couple and was scared I had gotten a stroke. So the phone was put in rice, but it is still wasn’t working okay. So I bought one of my brother’s phones. And my husband wasn’t even surprised over my phone little bath. He was amazed that I hadn’t dropped it in water before.

I have so many stories where I have done something clumsy that I could fill a book.. And I am not even 30 years old.

Are you clumsy? Or am I the only one?

Now I am going to try to get some studying done before my husband gets home.

Love, Nea

 

 

Finally Thursday

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I finally went to campus today. It was nice to go back, even if I could have stayed home in bed a couple of days more. But I only had a 2 hours lecture where we went through old exam questions. I had some minor panic feelings in the car on my way to campus, but I could handle them. One reason for my feelings was that my sunglasses broke and I really needed them. But I just turned around and get myself a cap instead so I could drive to campus. I hadn’t gotten very far from home when I turned around.

I have stressed over how behind a must be after being sick and at home the last three days, but when I came to campus today and talked with some of my classmates, I don’t feel as stressed anymore. I will have to study this weekend, but then I will be in sync with the rest of the class. And that feels really good.

Now I am trying to come up with what we are going to eat for the rest of the week. I am going grocery shopping, and that is something I hate doing, because if it is crowded I know I can get a panic attack. I have to fight with my mind so I can shop because I don’t want to send my husband to the store every time we need something. This is something I really need to work on, and a few years ago I would not have been able to do this, but I have my ways of getting it done.

Hope you are all having a wonderful day!

Love, Nea

Wonderful autumn! 🍁

Man cold

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I havent been to campus yet this week. I am laying at home with a man cold. I was planing to go to my lecture yesterday. I got up early. Ate breakfast and went back to bed to rest before I needed to go. I woke up half past twelve. My lecture ended twelve oclock.. I had sleept for more than 5 hours.

Today I didnt even try to go to campus. But I am starting to feel better. So fingers crossed that I can go to school tomorrow.

Now I am going to snuggle down with my husband, who is also home sick, and watch some netflix.

Love, Nea

Election day in Sweden

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Hello,

It’s election day in Sweden today. And I have voted. I hope everyone does, but I think many people won’t vote. This makes me sad. We have democracy for a reason.

This election is also making me scared about who will win the election. Some of the political parties have some non-friendly views on immigration and people who are not born here in Sweden. I know who I want to win, but I have to wait until tomorrow for the results.

I am still sick if anyone is wondering, but I have decided to make the best of today as I can. I am going to get some studying done. But I am also going to rest as much as possible. I have to go to campus every day next week so I will need my strength.

Now I am going to study. Half the day is already gone.

Have a wonderful day, and if you are living in Sweden, Please vote!

Love, Nea

My election card

No lazy Saturday for me

On By NeaIn A, Anxiety, Depression, Life, Love, Mental Health, Panic attacks, UniversityLeave a comment

Good afternoon,

Yesterday was a day I just want to forget. The funeral for my grandmother was yesterday and I don’t know what I would have done without my husband. His support got me through the day. I went to campus in the morning for my two lectures and then my husband picked me up and we went to my parents to eat lunch and change into funeral clothes. When we came to the funeral all my instincts screamed: Run as fast as you can.

I really didn’t want to go inside. But my husband took my hand and together we went in. When I saw the coffin all I wanted to do was to fall down, but my husband was there by my side. I cried and I cried. And he gave me tissue after tissue. It was a beautiful ceremony and I think my grandmother would be pleased with it. It was a hard and emotional goodbye for all of us. But I hope and think she is with my grandfather now.

In the evening I was so tired and didn’t feel good at all. So we took a quiet night at home.

This morning I woke up with a fever and a cold. But I had a million things to do, many of them for school. So today I have done some of them and the rest I am doing tomorrow.

I hope you all have a wonderful day,

Love Nea

Dreading tomorrow

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Hello Everone,

Tomorrow it’s finally Friday, but tomorrow is a day I been dreading for a couple of weeks. The funeral for my grandmother (my father’s mother) is tomorrow. And I am not really ready to say goodbye yet. She passed away at home in the middle of August and I can still not get my head around it. I miss her and I wish a could tell her again how much we love her and how much she means to me. I am currently writing a post about her and her influence on my life. I am just not sure if I am going to post it here.

Writing has always been therapeutic for me. A chance to express my self without anybody interrupting me. And I can bare myself in a way I can’t if we stood face to face. That’s one of the reasons I created this blog.

But back to tomorrow. I am going to campus early in the morning. Just like today. This morning I got up at half-past four to get to campus on time. And tomorrow I need to leave about a half hour before because we are leaving the dogs at a friends house who is going to have them all day. And my husband is driving me to campus. Then he is going to work for a couple of ours. Then after my two lectures. That ends twelve, we are going to my parent’s house to eat lunch and change, it’s about 45 minutes drive from campus. Then its the funeral. So I don’t think I am going to write anything here tomorrow. I may just take a day off.

Right now I should be studying, but I can’t really get my mind in the right place. I just want to hug my dogs and not think about tomorrow. And I need chocolate.

Love, Nea

Happy Hump Day!

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Happy Hump Day!

I am writing this on campus. I am waiting for my next “lecture” to start. In about 2 hours. My first lecture was at 11:15 and now I am trying to study, but there is quite a lot of noise around me. Because this week is the first week of the term the campus is pumping with life and people, all the time. Almost every parking spot is occupied and so are the bike racks.

I am looking forward to this day to end. It is really a hump day for me. The longest school day for this week and I finish at six a clock this evening. And I need to go grocery shopping and pick up my dogs before I am home again. From campus till my house I have about 1 h driving to do. So I am happy if I am home to about 8 a clock this evening.

But this is the life of a student or a worker. I shouldn’t complain. I have a wonderful life and an amazing opportunity to study at university. And I know that when I pick up my dogs they will be happy to see me and they are going to want to snuggle.

My husband is probably working late this evening. But when he gets home we will cook some food and talk about our day. It’s nice to just relax together.

Now the big question is: What are we going to eat tonight? It’s hard to think of something easy. But I will figure it out.

Now I shall try to study some. Have an amazing Hump day!

Love, Nea

Autumn is here to stay!

Second day at campus

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Good afternoon!

Now I had my second day on campus. It went better than yesterday. I meet my wonderful friend Tova and we talked about our classes and she gave me some pointers about the class I am taking right now. She is just wonderful. And always helps me. Also, she always reminds me that I am stronger and smarter then I think.

And then I had a lecture, or not really a lecture. The class of about 100 students are divided into 3 groups and we have time with one of our teaching assistants and we go throw some of the statistics calculations we have in the book or in our booklet. It’s so we learn how to calculate different statistics and their formulas. I am going to have about 2-3 of these a week, for about 8-9 weeks. And I am also going to have 3 lectures a week. And a couple of lab experiments (don’t really know if this is the right word, sorry) in the next 8 weeks.  I am excited and a little scared. Its hard work and I hope this class will be good for me.

Of course, I had some small panic “moments” during the day today, but I don´t let myself get lost in those thoughts or moments. I just keep moving forward. I am trying to always see the bright side of things, and not get caught up in the negative all the time. Its hard sometimes, but you have to try and change your thoughts and not hang out with negative people.

Take care of yourself. And don’t let people pull you down.

Right now I am doing a kind of from home test that I will have the opportunity to do one every week. I have 20 tries per week and the best results are counted together at the end of these 8-9 weeks and I can get points credited for my written exam at the beginning of November.
So the better I am at these test the easier it will be later. But they take time. They call them “Dugga” and I hope you understand what I mean in my explanation. It is not the same questions on every 20 tries. It is different. And I have until tomorrow early morning to finish this one. And I have 10 tries left.

Then on Friday the next Dugga is realised with many more questions and 20 new tries. And I have until Monday morning.

Have a wonderful evening. I need to get back to my Dugga.

Love, Nea