Category: About me

Today is the day

On By NeaIn About me, Everyday life, Life, Oracle, University, ZeldaLeave a comment

Good Morning,

Today my classes will begin again. Today I have an afternoon class, so I am still at home with the dogs. But I have lots of things to do before I go to campus today. I have a little bit of reading to do and some other school-related things to do. But first I wanted to write something here.

Yesterday afternoon my parents came back with Oracle. It was really nice to have her home again. I know she has had a wonderful time with my parents and it has been nice to have some alone time with Zelda. But I still miss Oracle when she isn’t with us. Zelda had obliviously also missed her “sister” because she was really happy seeing her again yesterday. And this morning when I woke up they were sleeping in the same dog bed together. Almost hugging. It was so cute.

My husband and I slept the first night in the new bed tonight. I woke up with no back pain. It felt wonderful. But the bed still smells new. I don’t really know how to explain it, but it was hard to fall asleep. I know I will get used to the “smell” eventually and that it won’t smell new forever.

Right now I am sitting in the sofa with Oracle sleeping on the left of my and Zelda sleeping on the right of me. I am waiting on a call from my husband telling me if he is going to have to be gone for a few days because of work.

Now I am going to do some reading.. Have a fantastic day!

Love, Nea

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Our new bed.. 

 

Sunday morning

On By NeaIn About me, Anxiety, Depression, Everyday life, Life, Mental Health, Panic attacks, UniversityLeave a comment

Hello,

Today is the day before my first class of the term. I feel ready, but I am a bit anxious about starting again. As I have previously told I have a problem with a lot of people and I know that every class starts tomorrow so there will be a lot of people on campus tomorrow.  I am afraid of having a panic attack, even though I know that if I do I will be alright. I have my trick for coping. Trying to think of things that make me happy. Looking at pictures. And if I don’t feel safe where I am, I try to get somewhere I feel safer. And if none of these things helps I usually call someone to talk to a bit. Tell them about my problems and we talk til I feel better. More relaxed.

I don’t take any pills for my mental health. Doctors have said that they can write me prescriptions, but I want to overcome this on my own. I don’t look down on people that take pills, I understand them. I am not saying I am stronger or better. I just say that everyone must do their own choices. And maybe one day I will need to take the pills, but not now.

And I can tell you I am on medication for my asthma and my allergies. Just not anything for my depression, anxiety or panic attacks.

If there is anything you want to know. Please ask.

Love, Nea

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Picture from this mornings walk.

My first post!

On By NeaIn About me, Life, Mental Health, OracleLeave a comment

This is my first post. I have been thinking about what I wanted to share with you.. I was thinking about just telling you lite about my self and why I want with this blog.

I have started this blog because I want to share my life with you all. It’s going to be kind of a diary, not really that secret. And I will write about all the things I find interesting and things that happen in my life.

My name is Linnéa, but almost everyone calls me Nea. I am 28 years old. I am currently a student at Örebro University. I am also a wife since July 2018 to A. We have been together for almost 12 years. And we live in a small town in the middle of Sweden. The population is a little bit over 7000.

For about 10 years have I been living with panic disorder, anxiety and depression. It was so bad at one point that I couldn’t leave my apartment. But I took control over my life with the help of my amazing husband, family and friends.  We moved to a house and got a dog, Oracle (I will tell you more about her later) and I trained her to be my therapy dog. Without this, I don’t know where I would be right now. I am forever thankful for every amazing person in my life and for my dog, Oracle.

I hope you like my blog. I am really new to this, so please be kind to me.

Love, Nea