Tag: Student

No lazy Saturday for me

On By NeaIn A, Anxiety, Depression, Life, Love, Mental Health, Panic attacks, UniversityLeave a comment

Good afternoon,

Yesterday was a day I just want to forget. The funeral for my grandmother was yesterday and I don’t know what I would have done without my husband. His support got me through the day. I went to campus in the morning for my two lectures and then my husband picked me up and we went to my parents to eat lunch and change into funeral clothes. When we came to the funeral all my instincts screamed: Run as fast as you can.

I really didn’t want to go inside. But my husband took my hand and together we went in. When I saw the coffin all I wanted to do was to fall down, but my husband was there by my side. I cried and I cried. And he gave me tissue after tissue. It was a beautiful ceremony and I think my grandmother would be pleased with it. It was a hard and emotional goodbye for all of us. But I hope and think she is with my grandfather now.

In the evening I was so tired and didn’t feel good at all. So we took a quiet night at home.

This morning I woke up with a fever and a cold. But I had a million things to do, many of them for school. So today I have done some of them and the rest I am doing tomorrow.

I hope you all have a wonderful day,

Love Nea

Dreading tomorrow

On By NeaIn About me, Life, Love, Mental Health, UniversityLeave a comment

Hello Everone,

Tomorrow it’s finally Friday, but tomorrow is a day I been dreading for a couple of weeks. The funeral for my grandmother (my father’s mother) is tomorrow. And I am not really ready to say goodbye yet. She passed away at home in the middle of August and I can still not get my head around it. I miss her and I wish a could tell her again how much we love her and how much she means to me. I am currently writing a post about her and her influence on my life. I am just not sure if I am going to post it here.

Writing has always been therapeutic for me. A chance to express my self without anybody interrupting me. And I can bare myself in a way I can’t if we stood face to face. That’s one of the reasons I created this blog.

But back to tomorrow. I am going to campus early in the morning. Just like today. This morning I got up at half-past four to get to campus on time. And tomorrow I need to leave about a half hour before because we are leaving the dogs at a friends house who is going to have them all day. And my husband is driving me to campus. Then he is going to work for a couple of ours. Then after my two lectures. That ends twelve, we are going to my parent’s house to eat lunch and change, it’s about 45 minutes drive from campus. Then its the funeral. So I don’t think I am going to write anything here tomorrow. I may just take a day off.

Right now I should be studying, but I can’t really get my mind in the right place. I just want to hug my dogs and not think about tomorrow. And I need chocolate.

Love, Nea

Happy Hump Day!

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Happy Hump Day!

I am writing this on campus. I am waiting for my next “lecture” to start. In about 2 hours. My first lecture was at 11:15 and now I am trying to study, but there is quite a lot of noise around me. Because this week is the first week of the term the campus is pumping with life and people, all the time. Almost every parking spot is occupied and so are the bike racks.

I am looking forward to this day to end. It is really a hump day for me. The longest school day for this week and I finish at six a clock this evening. And I need to go grocery shopping and pick up my dogs before I am home again. From campus till my house I have about 1 h driving to do. So I am happy if I am home to about 8 a clock this evening.

But this is the life of a student or a worker. I shouldn’t complain. I have a wonderful life and an amazing opportunity to study at university. And I know that when I pick up my dogs they will be happy to see me and they are going to want to snuggle.

My husband is probably working late this evening. But when he gets home we will cook some food and talk about our day. It’s nice to just relax together.

Now the big question is: What are we going to eat tonight? It’s hard to think of something easy. But I will figure it out.

Now I shall try to study some. Have an amazing Hump day!

Love, Nea

Autumn is here to stay!

My first post!

On By NeaIn About me, Life, Mental Health, OracleLeave a comment

This is my first post. I have been thinking about what I wanted to share with you.. I was thinking about just telling you lite about my self and why I want with this blog.

I have started this blog because I want to share my life with you all. It’s going to be kind of a diary, not really that secret. And I will write about all the things I find interesting and things that happen in my life.

My name is Linnéa, but almost everyone calls me Nea. I am 28 years old. I am currently a student at Örebro University. I am also a wife since July 2018 to A. We have been together for almost 12 years. And we live in a small town in the middle of Sweden. The population is a little bit over 7000.

For about 10 years have I been living with panic disorder, anxiety and depression. It was so bad at one point that I couldn’t leave my apartment. But I took control over my life with the help of my amazing husband, family and friends.  We moved to a house and got a dog, Oracle (I will tell you more about her later) and I trained her to be my therapy dog. Without this, I don’t know where I would be right now. I am forever thankful for every amazing person in my life and for my dog, Oracle.

I hope you like my blog. I am really new to this, so please be kind to me.

Love, Nea