Lists

I guess I am not the only one who is forgetful. And I know that there are more people with depression and anxiety who need to have goals of what to do during the day to be able to get things done. This means that I write a lot of lists. Lists of things I need to do, like the dishes or laundry and watering the plants. But also lists of what groceries are needed, what we are going to eat that week, as well as lists of what I want to share on this blog and my Instagram linked to this blog. As well as on my bookstagram and book blog. I also write lists of what I am thankful for and the top three things that have happened in a week. This helps me find the light in the dark.

I think I write lists of almost everything and it helps me. Helps me remember, helps me get things done, and helps me focus on good things. I know some people get annoyed when I talk about my lists, but they help me. Therefore they are important.

Today I started once again on a list of what I am thankful for. This is a list that never really changes, only smaller things on it or seasonal things. But it helps me. I want to share this list with you. It might help you or give you the idea to try your own list. So here goes:

What I am thankful for:

  • My Husband
  • Oracle (my corgi)
  • Zelda (my second corgi)
  • My family
  • My friends
  • My house
  • My happy childhood memories
  • My writing
  • My books
  • The food I eat
  • The clothes
  • My warm and comfy bed
  • My time
  • My garden
  • The woods around me
  • The animals that I see living in the woods
  • The sun
  • The smell of the warming fire in our fireplace
  • My stubbornness
  • The hope of a white winter
  • The happiness I feel when I watch my husband
  • the happiness I feel when my dogs chase each other on the frosty ground in the garden
  • The happiness I feel when my nephew or neice wants to play or just be with me
  • Having somewere to share my struggles

This list is shorter than the real list. But this is what I wrote in about five minutes. And looking at it makes me feel thankful and blessed. I also have hope for the future. I have so much love and support around me and I know I can make it through. Just as I know that you can make it through.

Love, Nea

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12 years ago today

Today it has been 12 years since my husband and I became a couple. If someone would have told me for 13 years ago that I would be here living with my husband and two dogs, I would not have believed them. I did not feel like someone could love me for me. But now I am happily married to my best friend and the love of my life.

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My husband in the sunset, taken a couple of years ago. 

He’s there for me in so many ways. And I know that he will always be here for me. He is the glue that holds me together in tough times. He’s my rock that keeps me steady when I have a hard time standing up. He’s my shelter when I feel scared.

I am lucky to have this amazing man in my life and to call him my husband. Next week we have been married for 4 months.

I am looking forward to spending the rest of my life with this fantastic man.

I love you A!

 

My husband – Thankful Tuesday

I am thankful for being married to the best man I have ever meet. He is my best friend and I know that he is always there for me.

I can call him whenever I need to talk to him and he always gives me time. When I have a panic attack he just gives me exactly what I need. He listens to my problems and he is always a good sounding board to my ideas and thoughts.

He makes me laugh, even if I had a really bad day.  You know the kind of laughter that makes your stomach ache.

He supports my dreams and goals. Many of them are the same for both of us. And he always pushes me to do better and to never give up. He helps me overcome things I didn’t think I would ever be able to do. But with his help, I am now studying at a University and getting a bachelor’s degree in Business Administration (Company Economics in Swedish).

This November we have been a couple for 12 years and I don’t know what I would do without him in my life.

I could write a book about what he means to me and still not be close to finishing with all that is amazing about this man.

So to finish this post. I am thankful for my husband on this thankful Tuesday.

My wedding day

A and I eloped. We didn’t want to have a big party where everyone was looking at us when we exchanged our vows. So we did it legally in Sweden at the city hall in Örebro. It took about 10 minutes and our witnesses were my brother, my sister-in-law and my nephew. My brother found out the day before that he was going to witness our wedding. But this is not what we count as our wedding day. My sister-in-law had known about our wedding since September last year, because she helped me with finding my dream dress and planing so they could come with us to England.

We had our real wedding 13 days later, the date that we have in our rings, in Wales in Great Britain. My brother and sister-in-law were our witnesses this time too. It was just us four. And my brother was taking the photos. We had our private ceremony in a grove. It was perfect and everything I wanted it to be. My husbands vow where amazing and I cried. I will remember this day forever.

It was all just what I wanted it to be. And I am really pleased with how we were true to ourselves and did it our way. Our parents got a text in the evening on our wedding day, with a picture and we wrote like: so this happened on our vacation.

We have gotten mixed responses on our wedding, but for the most part, it has been positive.

We had a wedding party to celebrate with our family and friends last Friday. I will write more about it later. And I know I will write more about our wedding later too. It’s one of the best days of my life..

Have an amazing day!

Love, Nea

 

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