One week from now…

I will probably be sitting on the sofa in our apartment in Edinburgh. Early Thursday next week we are being driven to the airport. And I haven’t started packing yet. This is starting to stress me… I thought I had a lot more time. The last couple of weeks have gone by so fast.

Today I have washed a lot of clothes and I need to wash a whole lot more. I have the bags at least. We bought 3 new bags a couple of months ago, but I need to buy luggage tags for them.

Do anyone have any good packing tips? I hate packing and I feel like I always miss something when I pack. I started writing a packing list a couple of months ago and I think our bags will be full. I was wondering if I should buy more bags, but we are already taking tree large bags that we are going to check in and we are each going to have a carry-on bag.

Now I have to go and hang laundry. Have an fantastic Thursday evening!

Love, Nea

Situation Sunday ~ 16th December

A hard week is soon over and a new week is just around the corner. I am so grateful for all the amazing people around me that support me. This week has been a challenge, but I made it through and because of that I am a little bit stronger. 

Today I wanted to quit. I was going to my self-defence class and I just wanted to call my friend and say that I was not feeling good. But I powered through. And I had an amazing time. It was hard at times when I had my flashbacks, but the trainers where amazing. 

After the self-defence class, my husband and I took a walk with the dogs down by the river. It was starting to get dark, but it was beautiful with the snow that was gently falling down.

Picture from today’s walk down by the river

Now I am sitting on my sofa with two sleeping dogs beside me and my husband is driving to change cars with my parents and to pick up pizza. Probably the last pizza before we move to Edinburgh. I love pizza, but we don’t eat it that much. We try to cook as much as possible, because of my food allergies. 

Now I am going to snuggle with my dogs. I hope you all have a fantastic Sunday. A happy third Advent. We are going to light the third candle when my husband gets home. 

Love, Nea

Last day at Campus

Yesterday I had my last day at campus, here in Sweden before I go to Edinburgh. It has been a hard week so far. And I am so thankful for my friends at campus for helping me through this tough week. I think that it’s more real now that we are moving. Moving away from my dogs, my family and my friends. It has always been like months away, and now its just a couple of weeks. I am looking forward to studying abroad, but I know I will miss everyone at home. 

I have always dreamed about studying in another country. But with my depression, anxiety and panic attacks I never thought I would be possible. Now, thanks to my wonderful husband’s support and the help from my family I am finally going. 

I know that I am stronger than I think. I know I can do anything I want to do and I also know that my dogs are going to be well taken care of while I am gone. And this is a quote that I try to remember.

Picture taken buy me and the quote is by: H. Jackson Brown Jr.

I missed posting a few of my planned Christmas Countdown post this week, just because I have had these bad days. But I will post them soon. 

Have an fantastic Friday!

Love, Nea

8th December ~ Self-Care Saturday

Today I don’t want to share my self-care tips with you. Today I want to share why I do self-care. And why I need to get better at it.

So this last couple of weeks have been hard on me and my mental health. I have been struggling with Statistics. I spent almost all my time studying and after the exam and assignments, I felt like a balloon that lost all its air. And then I had to wait and see if I passed the course or if I had to take the exam again. If you are or have been a Student you know what I am talking about. 

And then I started realixing that it wasent so long left until I would move over 1000 kilometer away from home. From my family. My dogs. My friends. And that got me kind of shaken up.

And on top of this we are going throw my grandmothers house and dividing the heritage between us all. It feels like my grandfather, who passed away in September 2009, and my grandmother is still there. I am just waiting for them to come down from their bedroom and ask what we are doing. I miss them so much.

For me, Self-Care is an important part to stay grounded and to take time to cope with all that is happening around me. It can very hard some days to take care of ourselves. Just brushing our teeth can be hard. But its important. And I have promised myself that I need to get better at taking care of me. 

These last couple of days I have tried to do at least 5 things a day to take care of my self (and brushing my teeth and taking a shower does not count this week). I have done my skin-care rutin, I have taken long walks, I have listened to music and I have taken time to just breath and not feel stressed over what I need to do.

I hope you all also can take some time and spend it on your self-care. You are important! You need to put yourself first sometimes!

Love, Nea

26th November ~ Motivational Monday

It’s a new week and I have so much on my mind. For this Motivational Monday, I decided to share a quote that I have to remind my self about constantly. 

“Think Continually About What You Want, Not About The Things You Fear.” ~ Brian Tracy

Bemuse I live with anxiety, depression and panic attacks, I am afraid of so many things. I am afraid something can happen to my husband, the dogs or my family. I am afraid to faint in public. I am afraid of getting a panic attack. I know this is ironic because having anxiety over this can cause a panic attack.

Sometimes I just have to think about what I want in life and not everything I am afraid of. Everyday is a struggle for me. I have a panic attack at least once a day, but I don’t let it stop me. I know I am better than that. And what I want is to get a degree and I am not going to let my fears stop me. 

And if I can do it so can you. You are so much stronger than you believe!

Love, Nea

Tova Leigh ~ WCW

This week’s Women Crush Wednesday is all about Tova Leigh. Many of you might now know her. But she is an inspirational woman that has given me so much hope for the future and that I am beautiful just the way I am. 

Some of the reasons why she is this weeks WCW:

  • She doesn’t take shit from anyone.
  • She is brutally honest, about parenthood, about being a woman. Well, literally everything. 
  • She started something that she calls: MOM LIFE CRISIS. She literally films herself doing things she always wanted to do: like bungy jumping and pole dancing. 
  • She does videos of herself and sometimes with her husband doing things other people have done, but she/they do it a little different. She tags it: nailedit. They are hilarious.
  • She makes me laugh.
  • And she posts things that make you question life, in a good way.

You can follow her on: Instagram, Facebook and Youtube.

I also want to share with you how I found her. I was having a really bad day at campus, with panic attacks and anxiety that was crippling me. My lecture for the day had ended and I was sitting at a table waiting for my husband to get off work so we could drive home. And that was about 3 hours away. I had my headphones on and was scrolling on facebook trying to keep my mind occupied. And a friend of my had shared a video that Tova had posted. I watched it and I laugh. I then went on her page and started watching what she had shared. And all the sudden my husband called saying he was on his way. Her page literally saved mine from a big panic attack. And I have followed her since that day. 

This one is so funny. I don’t have kids, but I just love it.

First episode of mom life crisis:

Just watch her videos and I promise you will laugh and feel understood. And Tova, if you by any chance reads this, thank you for all that you share with us. You are amazing and fantastic. And I am looking forward to many more funny nailedit videos and other fun things. And the new Mom Life Crisis video about the trip to Nepal and Everest. And basically anything you post. 

Love, Nea

Skincare ~ Self-care Saturday

It’s time for self-care Saturday and today I want to share with you one of my favourite self-care routines. Skin Care. I feel so much better after I have gone through my skincare routine. It helps me relax and I know that I take care of my self when I do it. And I know that my skin gets better when I take care of it and I will feel better because my face isn’t full of acne and blemishes.

When I go through my regular skincare rutin it takes about 10-15 minutes. And if I also take a mask it takes about 10-15 minutes more. I try to do it morning and evening. If you don’t have a skincare rutin, I can really recommend to try it.

I have tried some different brands of skin-care and the one that I love and that’s works with my allergies and other problems are; Artistry.

Right now I use (THIS IS NOT A PAID AD):

  • Artistry Hydra-V Fresh Foaming Cleanser ~ Cleans my skin and hydrates it.
  • Artistry Hydra-V Fresh Toner ~ A toner that takes away the last of the impurity on the skin.
  • Artistry Hydra-V Vital Skin Serum Concentrate ~ A serum that helps me with moisture and hydrating my skin.
  • Artistry Youth Xtend Serum Concentrate ~ A serum to help me with the wrinkles I already have and to prevent wrinkles that I will get in the future.
  • Artistry Hydra-V Refreshing Gel ~ My day and night crème that hydrates my skin and its also kind of cooling.
  • Artistry Youth Xtend Crème Enrichissate ~ My eye crème that a use to get my puffiness under the eyes to get down and to help me prevent future wrinkles.

And I at least once a week I use these masks:

  • Artistry Hydra-V Refreshing Moisture Mask ~ A mask to hydrate the skin.
  • Artistry Essentials Pore Cleansing Masque ~ Artistry Essentials are no longer sold here in Sweden, so now I am going to buy this one: Deep Cleansing Mask ARTISTRY™.

And when I have a lot of acne I use this product: Artistry Essentials anti-blemish, that now is replaced with this one: Anti-Blemish Gel Treatment essentials by ARTISTRY™.

* This is not a paid ad. I just wanted to share my skin-care with you all when I talked about self-care.