Accountability not justice

When I woke up this morning and looked at my phone, I saw that Derek Chauvin had been found guilty in all three charges. I cried, for so many reasons. Some people said it was justice for George Floyd, but some other said it is accountability not justice. And I agree, it is accountability. George should be living his lift right now, just like so many other black people that has been killed by cops.

But I got hope. I felt hope. I think a lot of people in the US and around the world felt the same. I hope this means that things will change. That there will be accountability to so many lost lives.

Dante Wrights
Adam Toledo
Rayshard Brooks
Daniel Prude
Breonna Taylor
Atatiana Jefferson

Just a few names… there are so many more that should be alive today. I found this kind of pamphlet online with some of the black people that have been killed by cops. Some I had not even heard about. You can find it here.

I also read something about a young black woman being killed in Ohio just minutes after the Derek Chauvin conviction. Makiyah Bryant. From what I have gathered she called the cops herself, because her sister and she was being attacked by other residents in the fosterhome they were living at. And still a cop killed her. I.. I have no words. I have not watched the video of the shoting, beacuase it would trigger me.

I just need something to happen. I need a change in the world for the better. I need black people all over the world to be safe. I need the police to stop threating people different depending on their skin colour. I need more wins, like the Chauvin trail.

Depression and hate

TRIGGER ALLERT. Talk about depression, suicide, rape, murder, hate crimes.

I have thought about writing this post for more than a week. It feels like the world is getting more and more ugly. What I mean is why is there so much hate. Murders and hate crimes are increasing in number. Women are raped, and when they come forward they are put on trial by the media. Just the other last week of the leading news shows in Sweden where talking about this prominent man that been booked because a women has stepped forward and pressed charges against him for raped. The report was angled so the woman was just as much on trail, if not more, than this man. The woman has pressed charges against men before, and that was brought up. What the hell does that have to do with things? Many women has been sexually assaulted before. And the district attorney that has boked this man has strong evidence that he is guilt. It just makes me so mad. And now the charges have been dropped and he get to be in prime time tv talking about how he has not raped her. They were just drunk and even though she had declined his kisses and hugs and hands on her earlier in the evening, she was not raped. He also said he did not grope her, he just got a bit handsy and that is apparently fine. I am so mad and sad right now and I can not understand what that woman is going trough.

Every day when I read or listen to the news, all I see is hate. A Man killing Asian women in the USA and claims it is not racism. What else could it be? He targeted Asian women. And the statistics show an increase of hate crimes against people with Asian descent since Covid spread through the world a year ago. Can this be because people who suppose to be leaders have been blaming China? Fueling the hate? Look at the moob that took over Capitolium. Those where terrorists. And Trump once again showing the world who he is.

Look at the Black Lives Matter Movement. How many black lives have to be destroyed before the world does something? How many more lives has to be taken before the world changes? Are the entire world on the way to be just like Germany was under Hitler? Why can’t we just love each other? We all come from the same place a long long time ago. We are all one race.

Then we can talk about Mental health problems. How they are laughed at, or disbelieved when someone talks about it. Look at Meghan Markle. How the press has portrayed her. How they have hounded her. How they have twisted everything around. I believe her when she said she did not want to live anymore. Do you know why I believe her? Because I been their. I have had zero interest in continuing my life and that scared me. My dark thought were taking over my life and they scared me. I did something. I turned to people and I got help. Listening to Meghan Markle talk about it. Being open about it. All I could think about what a strong person she is. How I wished I had the strength to do the same. All I can do. All I have the strength to do. Is write about it here. It is safe to do. You don’t see me sitting here between having to fight my tears. You don’t judge my, or maybe you do, but I am safe behind the screen of my computer. Or at least I feel safe.

I don’t know about you. But I am sick and tired of this hate. I am sitting here writing something that I might get shit for. I am sitting here writing, while I am fighting my own depression. I am not suicidal, but I am depressed. I have a darkness in me at the moment and I am fighting it every why I can. I am trying to see the good in people. I am trying to get the hope back. I am praying for the world to change. I am praying for love and hope. I am praying that the hate crimes, the police brutality, the rapes, the way women are treated and oh so many more horrible things just to stop. I am praying for you. I am praying for your neighbour. I am praying for my friends and family. I am praying for human kind.

This is part of why I been silent here for awhile. I have wanted to write something, but my depression and anxiety has kept me quiet. Not any more. We all need to make this stop. We are living in 2021, why is things like this still happening?

The US Election

I am not a person who usually talks much about politics. I have a stand point and I know who I want to win. I been quiet about a lot of things because I believe in free will. But lately I come to realise that a lot of people don’t vote. And then they still complain about the outcome of the election. If you don’t vote you should not have anything to complain about.

The world that we live in today is making me scared and anxious. It feels like the rich people in to world get more and more power and like democracy is failing.

Look at the US where there are a lot of things that have gone wrong. They have an incompitent president that downplayed the Corona Virus and a lot of people died. Or all the shit he does that makes people turn against other people.

Look at the UK were they voted against giving out food for children at school during the holiday. Children are starving in poor family’s but the parliament are well off with food everyday.

Look at Poland about to implement a stricter abortlaw taking away the choice for woman. People are protesting, but will it change anything?

We have the black lives matters movement in almost every country. Policeman and policewomen beating up black people or killing them. Employees following black people around the store. People getting gunned down in there houses by police and nothing happens.

This is just some examples. I could find a lot more and write about. What I want to know is where is the compassion, where is the love, where is everybody’s equal right?

Today is the last day to vote in the US Election. I hope that Trump won’t win the election but with all the fake news and things he has spread around the US and everything his followers have done I fear he might win. I did not think he would have won four years ago, but now I don’t take anything for granted.

It is important that we take a stand against all the injustices in the world. Everybody can do something.

This is just something that has been in my head for a couple of days. I needed to get it out on paper.

Love, Nea

Black Lives Matter

I been quiet here for some time now.. And that is because I am scared over what is happening in the world. I am scared for black people, and I have been for a long time. I have started a post so many times to adress this and I have no words. No words for what is happening. I have participated in a couple of online protests and I have tried to educate myself on Black Lives Matter. As well as using my social media to spread awareness.

Black Lives Matter and this is about human lives. This is about Human rights. This is not politics. This is about everyone’s equal worth on earth. If you want to educate yourself about there are a lot of ways you can do so. Watch Documentary. Read books.

Watch this:

Jane Elliott is the best. Everyone needs to listen to her and understand that there are only one race. The human race is only one race.

Also watch this:

Educate yourself. Do what you can to show that this is not okay. Black Lives Matter!!