Locked out, Sunday and Cold

As some of you might know from other posts. I am really clumsy. I walk into furniture, I fall down a lot and most things I do can go wrong. Well let me tell you about yesterday.

So I was having a nice quiet morning in the sofa, listening to music in my headphones not to wake up my husband. I had eaten breakfast and was trying to just relax. When one of my dogs, Oracle started getting stressed and walking and whining. I knew this meant she needed to go out, so I quietly put on more cloths because it was like -4 Celsius outside. And went out with Oracle. So far so good. But when we where back after our walk I drooped my keys down between our stairs and the locked door. Not good. I could not reach it even how much I tired and I could not move the stairs. Not good at all. I tried to keep Oracle quiet while I tried to get a hold of my husband. I tried calling both his work mobile and his private mobile. I tried messenger. I was also knocking like crazy on the door. Both me and Oracle was getting frustrated and cold.

After a while I messaged my brother, because he lives in the same town as us and has a key, but they where not at home. I felt kind of defeated, but then my husband woke up and let us in. Now I can laugh at my clumsiness, but right then I was so mad at myself.

So what can I say. The clumsiness continues. But that is just me. I am stating to get used to it now. And my husband too.

I hope you have an amazing evening.

Love, Nea

Motivational Monday ~ October 7th

It’s is Monday and I am at home. I am actually going to be home this whole day. We finished out project on Friday and the day to hand it in is tomorrow before a lecture, so the plan for the day is to study for my exam next week.

So Monday means a motivational post from me and this saying always makes me smile. It is one that I heard for the first time from one of my teachers many when I was like 14 years old and it has kind of stuck with me since then. It is also this weeks quotes in my home made calendar. So it is fitting that I share it here with you.

Good saying isn’t it. I think we all need to be more positive in our life. I know that life can knock you down and it can all feel very negative, but there is almost always some way to spin it into a positive. Almost always.

Some days I have a big problem to be positive, but I try. For my sake, but also people around me. A negative person can easily pull down people around them and I don’t want to be that kind of a person.

I hope you like the days quote. And I wish you all an magical week!

Love, Nea

Grumpy dog and bloody floor

Yesterday did not go as planed at all. My parents where suppose to have the dogs until tonight, but my mum was not feeling well. So we had the dogs home over the evening and the night. Today my parents have the dogs over the day and then after Uni today I am getting them back. My parents are helping us with the dogs a lot and I am so grateful for it. But my mind was so set on a evening alone, without no dogs and no husband. Now I got a evening with the dogs. And a very grumpy Oracle. She was so mad at me yesterday.

It all began when my mum was cutting Oracles claws and she accidentally cut too much, so there was a lot of blood. Blood on the floor, on the dog and well it felt like everywhere. I know I am exaggerating, but I have a problem with blood, I get lightheaded and I have passed out. This might sound strange, but if it is a stranger that’s bleeding I can handle it, but if it is someone I care about, I can’t. At least not if I am not alone with the one that bleeds. I know this is so weird, but it’s just how it is. I think it might have something to do with my anxiety. Like it triggers something in me. Maybe some kind of fears to lose someone I care about.

Any how, after that the bleeding would not stop, not for long at least because Oracle wanted to lick her paws clean. So it started bleeding again. So we had to put a bandage on Oracles paw and then a kind of protective sock. She hates this. It makes her grumpy and she was showing me her feelings about it the whole evening. It is hard to tell a dog that it is for her best, even though I feel like she understands most things that I tell her, I know we have different opinions about this. I hope she will be less grumpy this evening. I just want to cuddle down under a blanket on the sofa and maybe get some writing done. And I hope that the dogs want to cuddle down with me. But we will just have to see.

Today my friends and I are hoping to get our project finished so we can have a day at home on Monday to study for our exam. So please keep your fingers crossed for us. Now I really need to get to it. I will try and take time to write here soon again.

I wish you all a fantastic Friday!

Love, Nea

Busy, busy and autumn

I have a very stressful couple of weeks behind me and infront of me. It feels like all my time is spent on campus working on a project or driving to campus. I put in around 9 hours a day studying and about 2-3 hours driving to and from campus. I miss spending time with my dogs and my family. And I really miss spending time with my husband. Some days it seems like we don’t see each other at all. He has his plate full with work and renovating the new house. We hope we can move in before winter, but it is a slow process and he is also pulling long hours at work. So we will just have to see how it goes. I know that I will at least have a full scheduled with Uni the coming weeks.

I haven’t posted here very little and I hope that I can change that. Maybe I need to spend some time this weekend and write a couple of post and schedule them. I hate to see my blog so empty of new updates. I have so many things I want to share with you. Like my shopping on EMP-Shop and what is happening in my life.

Right now I am sitting on campus waiting for my friends to start our project that is due on Tuesday. They should be here any minute so I really need to end this post now.. But I am so happy that autumn is finally here. With the beautiful leaves and the crisp are. All I want to do is drink hot Coco and read a good book. Maybe I will get a bit of time for that this weekend.

I wish you all an wonderful day!

Love, Nea

Motivational Monday ~ September 23rd.

Happy Monday everybody! I am at Uni writing this on my phone, because I need the time on my computer battery for todays class. I forgot my charger at home, but I wanted to post something today.. so I hope this works okay.

This weekend was basicly me laying on the sofa with a cold.. so no fun. And I am still not okay, but I am here at uni because I really need to bee here for every lecture and every class. So I am trying to motivate myself and not think about my sore throath or my fever.

I really did not prepare a motivational quote for today.. so I though I woould just reuse an old one. Hope that’s fine by you.

I Love this quote because it is so true. So stop yourself from limiting yourself and go after your dreams. Deep down you know you can do it!

I wish you all an amazing week!

Love, Nea

Motivational Monday – September 16

Good morning! Today I have one of those days where it feels like I have a million things to do and so little time. This week at Uni will be packed and I have a lot of other things to do as well.

Today’s motivational quotes is from one of my favorite actors and role-models. He is an inspiration and I try to live by this quote even though my anxiety makes that hard, most days.

Some days are harder then others not to worry. And I know it can be a struggle living with mental health problems. I am not saying that this is easy for me. I want to be as open as I can here, but sometimes I feel like I need to think more about the positive sides of my life and not just focus on my mental health problems. I fight my anxiety and panic attacks almost daily. And my depression always comes along on the most difficult days. Some days I feel like I am Eeyore in Winnie the Pooh. The daily struggle is increased when I have stress in my life, and right now I got a lot of stress in my life. But I try to deal with it the best I can. It is a work in progress, but I know that if I can do this, so can you!

So now I am going to take a deep breath and try my hardest not to worry. Then I am going to get all the things I need today ready. Pack it and the dogs in the car. Drive to my parents and drop the dogs of there. Then its of to Uni for the day.

I wish you all an amazing week and try not to worry. I know its hard, but I belive in you!

Love, Nea

Mother-In-Law ~ Thankful Tuesday

It is Tuesday and I wanted to do another Thankful Tuesday post. This one is for my amazing Mother-in-law.

She is a real inspiration and a person I know I can trust. She is always there for me when I need her and I know she is just a phone-call away.

She is a really strong woman who raised three boys, mostly by herself. One of these boys is my amazing husband, who I love more than anything.
My mother-in-law is giving and helpful. She bakes bread to me, because I have celiac disease and my asthma makes it hard for me to bake my own bread. So she does so I won’t have to buy the bread that are in stores (often dry). She also helps me mend cloths or alter them.

And she is an amazing cook and have taught her sons to be the same. Also she has helped me become better as well. I get my experimental tendency when it comes to cooking from her and her son. I never used to try anything new or change recepies, but I do now.

My mother-in-law is a person I am so grateful to have in my family, because she is not only my extra “mother”, she is also a great friend.

I know I have written about her before, but I felt like doing it again.
So to end this post I just wanted to say: Please appreciate the amazing persons around you that loves and supports you. And tell them.

Love, Nea